You everybody can constroy him-herself

 Of the beggining to be an efficient complete citizen, that have the duties but receive your rights.

When you see the other you see yourselve, when you got touched by the others problems you are a sensitive person, and you see that have injustice, was that way for me. I see that have injustice in the world, and I wished for a better world, a fair one. So today I know also that I heve my rights. And was to see when I was a kid that just a little older kids than me are in the traffic light asking money or in the market packing, soo I always see that have rights and that people doesn't receive liked it. I thought that could be anybody there, maybe the life of a wonderful person that born in a poor family. There was an worker, there was a kid that had worries with a poor mother and had to return to home with money, no matters how young was him. Burnt for the sun till got almost black. In a fair world the suffer is lower and is for everybody. There was an human, and you can talk with him-her is just another person living a hard life, with the worse and better professor the life.

The world have their values, the problem when the values are unfair, making the judgment be unfair, a better world is one that the person are recognize for their effort, good will.

Also see all that taught me something, is that I listen a history of a friend, she prejudice very much one she is from the foreign, so even you finding a person that know me personally, you can't know who she is and who is the person that was prejudiced, in the maximum you can know a history that is very similar. And was that she was visited for friends from school, and were two sisters and they bring the younger brother. She lived in a house and also she was alone, their parents were in the work, and she said for his friends that she can't let their brother got inside the house, and the older sister got inside her home leaving the borther outside the house in the sidewalk. After some time, a beggar hit the boy in the head and make sex with him. Let me say that happens because, have people that doesn't have iniciative, and the other persons notice that. And when the person notice that used to abuse of them. Can't have kids in the streets asking money? Even much more younger than the brother of the friends of my friend? I have to say that the normal is sit in the side walk, and make face of who is understanding the situation, and people would tend to if got close of you is to help. Of the way I was I would say to my sisters you have the obligation of return with me to home now, you can't be playing inside a house when I am in the side walk. Have other, I had knew that he was 10 years or older, he could remember the way he did with the sisters to that home and got the buses that leave to his home.

So let me say when we are kids is when we started to see all around to be smarter. The way that we do all days, what our parents do to pay the market. What people commonly do when need something, what words our parents used to talk with different persons, with the bank cashier, with the market cahsier, with restaureant waitress, with the employees of public spaces, or hotels, special that when we notice that we aren't anymore in our city, is a fun but an worry because, kids of our age dies of a lots of accidents that only kill kids. So we can't only depend of our parents, we have to pay attention, when our parent use money, when they use card, what the people talked with them, what kind of calls an adult make, that make me remember I had a so intteligent friend, and one day she listen his father datting in the phone. I had one friend that I didn't like her very much, I listen his talk with her maid, they talked of a way that she never would be understand for no one but the maid, she was infatile, and only the maid understand her, kind of mimiimiimi, mean something, whenwhenehwen mean she didn't liked the rest was for a dog understand. The professor said when she be older she would had a face of an old woman of make mugangas to talk.

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Free and naked

 Had someone listen that from the day I born I am in advantage, because in that day everybody born naked and today at least the cloth of the body the person have.

Is that if we have at least the clothes of the body, today could be the day of start all over again, is that nobody is so low, because at least clothes everybody have, doesn't people dressed naked people? You don't need nothing more than your will (vontade - the will of start) of start, you don't need money, a house, a wardrobe full of clothes, can you have lose everything, can miss everything in your life. Is that we have to don't give up of ourselves. When everybody abandons us, and nobody cares about us at least have one person that trusts in us, and are we. Sometimes the dramaticity comes suddenly, but the feeling of self-preservation is born with the person, already exists. This is because I didn't like women that cry for men, they don't love themselves, don't think like a man, a man doesn't think one day the woman of my life will come and give me money, and I will be lean, handsome and younger than I never was before. The men are more humble, if they are failures they think was me wasn't the other. They accept the fact that they failed, sometimes is the first step, when more early, more early you gonna react to get out of the pit, but at least he had hope in himself that he would fight and he would come to some place, even if he had only his body clothes.

In another incarnation, I picture in a movie the life of a man that lost everything near middle age, was humiliated, and in the end, he could receive the money that he inherited from his mother, but that only came after he constructed his life, he was cheated by the lawyer, the lawyer put him in condition of dependent and locked him, is question of title if the lawyer is your attorney or guardian, an attorney admistrate your property and rights and a guardian take care of you because you have lost that primal right, you can be owner but you can kind don't touch sometimes even use you can be expropriated. He had a very rich family. But things like that happens.

I was thinking at least I am humble. And nobody humiliates a humble person. So I thought that I wasn't in that danger, the person of the history also wasn't a pretentious person, but he didn't pay attention on his life. So let me say about the movie I did, his descendants were the first to want the movie done, with feeling, with fineness.

Why is so near of the persons. He was the only son of a rich woman, he was raised without a father, maybe his mother was a feminist? Rich only wanted a man to get pregnant, and born a boy. He in the school, he was a genius! He was a brilliant student, let me say something about my mother used to say, and was that about another person, that he was so brilliant that was dumb, "abestado". But his life was never walk in the city, all the time car with a chauffeur, with his mother doing all for him, the babysitter doing all for him,  maybe his mother thought that she would live forever and the intelligent son never had to listen about lawyers and things like that, rights legal affairs, he never took care of subjects that was the money, or properties of his mother. And his mother was very dumb, to save money, she sent away the corporation of lawyer the money was high really need all that lawyers to take care, an office like a institution is more respectful, trustable, and reliable, for one lawyer, when she died his son depend of that lawyer, that made the documents that he wanted to make the rich guy sign, he even doesn't knew what was he was signing after his mother's death. He was very dependent of all that employees making everything for him, even a simple shopping in a market, he never had did, he never had paid directly anything, and he never touched the money. So he had a humiliating life after his mother's death. So this is for everybody, some people are very dependent on their parents, isn't a question of age. Isn't a question of decency, had people that don't know talk with people that aren't their employees, say to the employee talk with him or her, this is too much, this humiliate young people, in my school had persons that walked with the babysitter and say to the babysitter to talk with us, an old lady to talk with kids that were almost babies, don't you think that scare and humiliate? With the babysitter long talks... So that is a bad person and doesn't have anything about the movie. I was saying that I was a humble person, and I do things of a normal life because is the right of everybody, so what is the pain? For a person that never made a buy alone, I think that could scare, and the person humiliate her-himself to someone do that for him-herself, I never understood, and I saw. I think that we have to communicate with other people, so one day when things got hot people gonna see me jump the wall to be mix with ordinary people because the explosion is from the other side, my mother taught me that we have to know to talk with the persons she said that was to shame a kid that doesn't know talk with the persons, only know talk with who you know isn't enough, so she put me on the arms and saied say to the seller what you want, hold the money and give it to the cashier and now receive the change. Have people that are poor and even have money for people make these simple things for them, a person who is that incompetency people told me that when she got with a poor body she was sent to a worse place like "serra pelada". She was poor she was prostituting herself to someone talk with a seller for her and make a buy for her, that person when need the intermediary went to a jewelry, the intermediary buy in a pedlar any junk, like a watch. So she was cold-bloodedly plucked.

Let me say that had two situations that people doesn't know but the person could go to the asylum, had another solution? And is who lie to much, and who is the low stage of self-administration, because you can lie so much till think that you can went to an law-court and say that you are a lawyer, if you aren't, you made something so dangerous that you are a case of interdiction, another case you use a fake id to say that you had make a driver test, and drove for many years that way you can be inteditated, are compulsive liars and the oher case is the person haven't self-administration, that person is a person because have someone taking care of her-him, but one day that the care-taker died that person would be a problem, a slag, so this person also can be interditatded.

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