Friday, May 17, 2024

What receive who want 2?

 Wha tdo you think of nothing! People have to choose, sometime don't choose is don't deserve nothing, person don't gonna receive nothing so want the two, nobody can live two lives, nobody want to be one of two, don't have that life, I think that is grotesque but sometimes is the soul of the person lying for herself, because see that don't gonna have nothing? Why does the soul do that, see is a more conscious person! The body isn't well attached to it's own soul?

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Had a computer game that I liked

 Is a mystery game but say to you visit a mansion isolate by a large property with no neighbors, do you think that visit during day is different from visit at night, like that you don't gonna discover nothing if aren't in the right hour of the day?

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A sentimental consultation!!!

 ear consulting the problem of lie the age is because everybody does! So your older man probably doesn't like you because probably he date women of his age that said that had only 20, so he thinks that people of your age are already passed and old... Hadn't bath of sea that heals....

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And my other friend jump inside a blender

People complain so the old expression: "jumped into a pool with piranhas", she said for the older friend that was a curse for one was a blessing for other, she would catch the old man for her, and the smell of failure in the air, smell of morbidity like imminent death, I am like essential soul, I see signs in the air!

I went away because I got embarrassed for shamed of the others. Don't you got, had people that are like that is with us but we almost run to don't see someone be humiliated, is a weird weird behaviour...

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I was trying find a person that felt hate?

 Don't matter what I said the problem was that she used what I said as a magic spell, she can use any perfume. Is a person uses what you say like an irrefutable truth, that upsets.

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That hideous friend Aquela amiga horrorosa

 Rememebering that I liked parfums, she was a nightmare, all I said she corrupted, I didn't liked the intelligence of a friend that was older, wasn't that much she was a repetent in my school, she asked what I though make a teenager deferent and said that was the perfume that they used because flower smell different... I was thinking in that youth was ethereal, and fragrance was ethereal so they had in common, I was thinking that probably, youth was fugacious, momentary, light and vaporous. When is vaporous is something that are sensitive for a man by any of the human senses like smell, so I wasn't mad or just poetic. And she said that she was looking for the parfum that make a old bitch like her fool a man, he smell and that parfum hide her original smell, say wasn't she a nightmare.

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One site that I liked very much when I was teen

 https://www.lolitalempicka.com/en



Also I liked very much sites about vogue, I saw very much fashion, kind magazines like Elle, France, German and things that had relation, I had time to study and like fashion. Also I used to see a lot of sites that had trips to countries that had catwalk I like that kind of content...

Today I think that follow the same kind of idea in the photos that are used in the products that product:

https://flowerknows.co/en-br

Had fashion that interests teens, is just things that I appreciated, we don't change so much.

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People asked a new idea for that party

 And is for that party that people dressed different and drink wine saying that is blood, and the idea is interpreted an carjacking, a friend live the car in the university and give the car keys for who gonna got the car hours after or in the next day, to live the car in the place of the party. Is like that people do in the school had on mine, they give us some tasks and and we make groups to make, even my mother didn't like because to accomplish students got out of the school and was walking alone by the streets. My mother never gave me permission to leave the school so I was out, gincana! Gymkhana! I went after a telephone, had schools that people can't bring cellphones to make a collect call if my mother give me permission I said to her that was a group of at least 7. 

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She isn't over 60 but what mad old lady

 She say that her life had a few solution... So the life is already solute because she would die of only one, and she thinking that I don't find solution for everything. Isn't profit?! She would die of only one problem she is in advantage, so say to her that is everything all right, that she would not suffer for all her problems.

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Had Jesus more than one? But the aren't the real, right?

 Before anything for me had an Charlie Chaplin older than the one of the Cinema, one of 1400's, in the past before God got all that friendship he was an grandchild of God and my grandfather, but this the one of 1400's, what he does and I learn he got the power of anotehr soul removing the spiritual medula... Probably he went to USA had crimes that was the remotion of the medula...

Also I coul had lived for 6000 years in a planet with people that were violent and there hadn't amputation and prostitution and where everybody was had. 

Also I would never used a rope in the belly if wasn't for a religion or a sect, the rope is there to when you betrayl your sect before they kill you they cut your rope. 

So had souls that had a rope in the waist, and don't know what means, one Jesus passed ropes in a lot of souls to call them angels.... The rope is with Jesus? Probably isn't the ugly reason, but I don't use because I am powerful nobody disminish my power. I want the rope is to people don't see that I was powerful I make them see the rope to they think the thing was accidental, I was judging and if the person wasn't that guilty I could make him climb with one command, but I was saying...

And the power I had of the command of Jesus and is only that what I said, I don't have the power of the two point of Jesus... The power is in the finger tips, so you don't need his hand just the finger tips of him. Like the E.T. the movie...

And I have the miracles of the operation of the old Jesus and of the Charlie Chaplin.

But the fact about the planet that I lived, and if was a trap? Let me say my brother form there said that he knew the end would the monkeys came and kill all the souls, so probably was light life but not eternal life? So I came to knew that planet that was a multitudes of people. Once here and knowing that Jesus persuit the male homosexualism, I went travelling to a more primitive era to explain to him that was very common in Europe primitive so was human... I was trying to make him see that even he was... Had so much homsexual in my family half of the males were. And I was opening doors to passe but the one that I hit well, how do you think was the Jesus that pursuit the male homosexual? He was amputee of the both legs in the middle two shin carried by a monkey in the backs mountained like was in a horse, and the monkey because of the weight was bend walking in the four claws. When I saw that I was in a primitive era that had monkeys and they probably were intelligent I returned more than fast and came with me other of their prisioneer, so were there at least 2 slavery souls, he in the planet was black, he today is homosexual but in a planet of monkeys he wasn't, think this that came also could be a Jesus, but or he is Noah or he is Moses, and that one appear that would be sent after the era or a important Jew probably Abraham, so he isn't so much time in that planet.

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Wednesday, May 15, 2024

Listen cousin had that

 That I didn't know if based in the fact, first your question you said why my mother only was protection for me and my brother, see I didn't think if what I see was based in the fact that for me could happening all but the only thing that make impossible my parents be together was my half-sister so let me say what I listen, I saw a old man that ressemblence with God, that said that he went for a wrong woman, my siter that he got her because she was wrong so nobody coul save her, say couldn't that be based in the fact that she was in my mind the only reason of my parents can't be together? So who was in danger was she. A wmon that was a copy of God don't you think that he was very powerful? Say if my mother said that she was guilt becasue open that door, imagine that door be locked would save even the wrong woman that was my sister? 

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See cousin had that

 you are saying that see I am not a demonist but I studied about good souls, that evil man that was a priest of the demon went after my brother to talk with him was becuase he was near a demon, an when I went to Europe went with me soul of my mother and the old man that was a demon see that my brother didn't had more that protection because she follow me.

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That person thinking herself loved

 Also I thought that even the police of the city were afraid to discover about, like a sect more numerous than the number of cops, happened something weird with her in the Asylum, but the director hide some aspects, I wasn't talking about because I was even afraid a person lie using my impressions, if a person said to me that I was right I would doubt. The doctor said that she desapeared and returned and deliver a baby cat. For me that was a ritual, something evil... They didn't forgot her, had all the kind of mad there and right her was abducted and returned, we never saw the animal they kill it. And years after I complain with the doctor that 3 persons that talked with her died, I never gaved permission to noboy went there to talk with that gum, one time I said to my cousin don't blame yourself you didn't say to them went there. I complain with him because was dangerous talk with her, he probably need make that hard. He was became a coveiro, I think the name wasn't gravedigger.

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And that story where finishes, a guard angel parent? My mother the psycopath

 Do you had hide that? Do you had like so much your brother to hide that? My mother was being a guard angel for me, but a guard angel she died so ins't normal. I let my brother return because he would came in disguise to Americas, who he would fool? A smart murder that was still that day undiscovered? Onyl coul be an inteligent person. Was that he kissed almost all day the hand of the uncle the father of our cousin, but, also I didn't know him, is that he was a lot of times in the house of our cousin, he was ruining her fame, had guys that went after me to ask if they make sex, I didn't know, but wanted to know how deep was that, I think that was know in USA the name machona and had machão, to words that were from the exterior but had. But one night that they went together, my brother passed the day making plans, that was smelling fish, he was making connections with men that aren't from the city, I was thinking that was a gang to kill someone, and she appear at the same night, my father say good night to her and went to his bedroom, I was curious to know if she knew that my brother passed talking with strangers? And they lived the house, I got a carriage and went after his father, so I knew him for the first time, I wanted to knew if he knew that she daughter wasn't passing the night in our home, she had took his carriage and he ask me to borrow the one that I came and I stay in his house till they return. Was a lot of person but they were afraid of his father and run away. I say that I wanted to let the horses rest and return in the morning, but I was thinking that even because the carriage my brother notice that was me. I lived to German. Once there my cousin went to visit me. And I said that I though that my mother was being next me. She went to an paranormal, and she was really near, the problem with my brother she to be near me she had said that she was guilt, my brother judge her and I not and she stay near me, I didn't know what was but I understand that her life had two parts the part that she was the girlfriend of my father and the part that she lived in another city the city that she died.

She went more times to the paranormal and the fact was that she was guilt because she opened the door the man didn't invade the house, she knew him. But till the soul of my mother say took months. The man was his father-in-law the father of the man that she find in the other city, also when my sister came from another city, one thing that was said in the city was that she was very used in the vagina, but that was said only for us, I think that the family of the my cousin listen that I thought that was probably was a gang or a demoniac cult. So I think that my mother didn't want me to search. My brother when thought that was our mother how she got mad because he was baby on her hands, she kept me only for less than 3 days in the hospital, and my father was who got me and took me to home.

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Tuesday, May 14, 2024

We had that chat

 In another incarnation, with my cousin lady, she said to me that my mother dressed balck also because she was orphan of mother so was she and his brother, but my cousin dressed like that because his father let, I sai that if she was think that copy my mother was good, the example that my mother gave was that she was murdered, that she didn't lived a love story with my father, so what she wanted? A love story, happens?

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Do you believe that diet work?

 And is the diet of the moon, if I believe I would did, and is you know when the moon change the fase, is like once a week so you gonna lose 1 to 2kg at week, and is pass 24 hours of the hour that the moon change the fase so you have to know the right time and is 24 hours of a diet of liquid... But is start the hour without solid in the stomach, isn't a dangerous thing to do but I really don't believe.

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Also had that

My family of the side of father, always were afraid of a person kidnap me saying that was my mother maybe because that the picture was mine. My father was very rich. They didn't wanted me liking very much even the babysiter, they didn't me to be devoid, I was raise to don't be soft, my family easy to have the feellings hurt, was so easy say to me that I hadn't have a mother.

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Also in the same life

 My father give me a lot of presents because my mother said to him to make me forgot about her. So we full me of presents because I would never knew my mother, so for them spoiled kid don't think much in a absent person, we travel to Europe to I ate in fancy European cake shops.

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A thing of internet improved!

 I saw that make holes with fork to make the crude chicken beef more soft and receive more taste of the seazoaning, I was saying to my guide that I prefer things that you don't need so much patience to make, a facility, like a meat beater a meat hammer, this thing aren't sale anymore because is more one thing to be infected in a kitchen, puuufff... But listen got 2 forks and make holes using the two hands is faster!!! Worth a pitty do... Fight so much with the beef to have a lunch! But making with two forks using the 2 hands is faster, something like twice FASTER!

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Monday, May 13, 2024

I was concern about

 I in that life I had an investigator, and I present him to everybody how being an psychiatrist that I was seeing because of the trauma is just he wasn't discovering nothing, I sometimes carry people there and he make question about their feelings about to investigate pretend that was a consult.

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I think that way

 If a person say that the best and worse is the same she deserve the worse.

Spent a lot with don't appreciate.

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I did say about

 Iidn't borrow that picture I let my female cousin hire a drawer to recreate the face of my mother, when I knew her I said to her that she gave me a reason better that she was only a curious person, to I talked about my mother. An she was niece of my mother.

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I wasn't the selfish one

 Once my brother and a female cousin want to me talk with my half sister in the Asylum. Also my father and my mother were married in secret, my diference of age from my brother was small they didn't had a return, is that they never lived together, and she runaway, think that the difference is for the half-sister, my mother in my mind was decent, she was only troubled. Once there in the Asylum my half-sister, that had passed a lot of years, she had a lot of people thoughg that my mother did all alone. I said at the time that his word wasn't enough to make me believe that my mother did all that and suicide, and I didn't want listen any more, a witness wasn't enough, or a victim that survive wasn't enough to make the conviction. So my sister accused me that I never liked the mother I got so pissy with her, I said that till the day pepleo said that she was dead I dream that at least one Christimas she would be with me and my father, and never occur, she had the mother all for her what was only one single day? I also never show to my brother the picture of the secret marriage of our parents, because was the only thing that I had from my mother the only memory, and she was young she was happy.

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Sunday, May 12, 2024

This way gossip is a very bad thing

 Make a person reveal her secret to use like a gossip is something bad, I never had secrets but I respect of the others. Once I sai for a friend be friend of the same person to she say for you to, he even said that wasn't a sin reveal someone secret, I don't think that way. Also if that person do that people, I am that way I never revealed a secret of a enemy that said to me when we were friends, and she reveal the secret of a friend, she had to know consequencies, that sis is the creature that was torture and received all knew because betrayl one, I myself never want discover his betrayl because the man was rich. She was so mad that said to him that she didn't had peice with him, that she wanted piece, I was so to know what she said ot him that I went to USA to ask to Indians what does means, they sai to me that means that she one day would kill him, I said to my borther I didn't said to that rich guy, he even didn't notice my travel to the new land, I was rich and my money buy uncommon things... So the dame make something that even his enemy did, I wasn't so curious about if she had never of do that, I don't lie and I wouldn't lie specially fro him, he asks things is more cheap doesn't know the answer. He have power to kill and make creatures, creatures at 6000 years need some gas, money in the soul and he had... She forever had to receive in the en of 6000 years his money.

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Do you know what is sucota

 Sucota is sucata dressed of cocota. it's junk dressed up as cocottes, cocota is darling girl you so foxy... 

About that I don't know how to say to that beutiful lady that old shit is that way, she would cook her on boiling oil for years, is her game she want her next her, so she got her by the curiosity in the day that she say the truth she woul enter her game and the other would went away and she want her forever... Like kill and hide the body!!!!

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Don't you think

 That release is kind of nude, with a bit of gold shade, I think is missing a perfume, a soap, with scent, brushes, that remember, I like so much products with smell of chocolate that could have even bath merchandise relative, but is a more expensive collection, nude is cool. Shampoo with chocolate scent, I used one just because the smell.

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I am thinking in purchase at least one of them, what I crush on


That brown eye mascara I am am thinking hard on,

I am on this nail vernis, and the lips pencils are apropriate also for eyes so is 3 shades of brown pencils for eyes, so unhappy we don't receive a special ticket to buy all for a special price, they could even mark it with for resselers, to we could make the collections that release.

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A long story maybe that was a person that wasn't Jesus?

And once a person that claims to be Jesus conveince my father of be father of his friend, let me say that was in previous life my brother or sister the female cousin, so my sister-brother born in the house of an uncle, and my sister that selfish woman that wanted that dress that was a fortune, I was so good with the cousin because I like her more, defend my sister because the trouble would fall on the head of my father, I even didn't like my sister. I thought was this time and was the first time that I started to look for birth of orphans because I didn't like the sister, an orphan is because even couples with kids, would not take care of the own kids, I was asking births that even the own kids of a person didn't want. I born at this time in USA, and my mother was tabled in the heart to don't be a single mother, they carry her to the doctor to save at least the baby. People felt very much I was so small that she would deliver me, but she was dead, I was raised by a aunt, the cousin also had trouble, he wanted so much a motehr that he born in a prostitute, he said that he called father all the men that was with his mother client, people understand his problem, he had a lot of brother and sisters. 

Was so hard find relatives, that one day I had to believe that 2 psycopaths was parents, 2 murders that they were good with their kids.

So first my mother was the type morbid, and my father was the kind who swindles, they were rich, remembering I think my father was catholics, I was a high place in the chuch I had a brother that I sent to Italy because he got troubles.

When I born my parents were in the school, probably she hide the pregnancy because nobody knew who was my mother, my father raise me. After she had another son with my father and she raise him but one day she enter him to my father raise him too, many years after she died, I think she was over 30 years, and was find with her a girl amputeed, she was probably under 6 years and was sent to an asylum to remember what happens, our mother was murdered, the sister was ugly, I thought that she was of the color of the concrete of so ugly, I was in the church superior to my brother, and he passed 20 years went to th easylum because of her, I had insights and I started to see the past of our half sister be with a very old man, and when I started to have that insights my brother said that the sister said who did to her was the mother I didn't believe, the poor woman was dea at 20 years what she was afraid to take so long? What I thought that our mother was murder by the old man that went with our sister and I would not know why the mutilation of that ugly lady. So near the pit lies, I thought that probably the old man was still alive and after a curious person that was diving for 20 years. And also our parents aparentely weren't even friends in the school. And also I thought that sister was the one that false Jesus push to my previous family how despise her, what robber follow us in another family.

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hold on... 

Saturday, May 11, 2024

And about all the mum of the world

 Oh heaven, in a day before mothers day I talking about a bad one, mothers are so necessary. But the problem of another sister of the past is that she wanted be my mother but she charge everything, can you imagine that probably had a price, and she didn't like a very powerful person, probably if she wanted something, that she didn't have probably was something that I would not have... I don't need the experience, why need the experience what is that as soul that doesn't have a brain.

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You know her-his problem

 He-she let's say it, it didn't say to me what its plan, it knew what was doing but it used people and for it the person doesn't need know, why, what the reason, it uses people it isn't friend, people are facilities an not friends, if it didn't say to me what it does, I am not its friend, it is kind destructive, it want to be a machine like a bugre, people are exploded an it just find another friend to replace!

People are stupid people are victim of the events, know is control, not manipulate, once a said to a friend this now we are apart, because I wont got in that adventure if I at least on't know what for, I saved my friend other lives but without know I can't save even myself... The fact I want talk with that fellows is it good in bed it is always surround by men, it supposes to be a bomb in bed, why so much devotion for a person full of secrets, this was one problem of my old friend, it is surrounded by people but aren't friends, and that make my friend happy, is about be worried, a exceedent hapiness make me worried, sometimes the spirit see that would not got old that will die soon, and the spirit think that is freedom, noboy can scarry the own soul one moment the soul accpet the fact that will suffer but the death wil came soon, the suffer doesn't last for ever, had souls that see the future but the body don't understand.

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Friday, May 10, 2024

God what story fedorenta

 Is he story of million of people... A person is raised without know the mother and the sister is a prostitute with some murders on his past, don't you have the same life! What his mother was doing all that years, being an famous opera singer, trying catch a perfect rich man... Who's knows? An old lady that the old woman appreciates herself, of the same way she is shamw people also shame for the same fact a smart woman that had age for motherhood, but wasn't that the point see this two person can be only raised together... one velha cocô that had proud of say tha is a mother of a promicous bad woman, and say with proud don't you see that she is mother only of that one...

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Thursday, May 9, 2024

A mathematical solution

 In a combinatorial analysis 2 students will be 2, 3 will be 6, so you can see that it's a sum of the value of students -1 like 30 will be 29+28+...+1, so taking the calculator we'll add up to give 36 1+2+3+4+5+6= gave 21, adding+7=28, +8=36 so it's 8+1 which is 9.

Is that if we gonna make groups of 2 in a number of students see that you got one number and combine with all so if:

1,2 only combination 1-2    1

1,2,3 you have all the combinations for till 2 + for 3 that is it by 1 and one so add this to the 1st result

1,2,3,4 and you only have to combine for 4 and add to the previous, 

when you got 90 you gonna notice that the 90 gona combine with all and all is 1 to 90 less the 90 itself,

so groups of 2 are combinations that gonna subtract the own number because it need combine with all.

So the conclusion isn't miracle or because mathematical brains works in reverse.

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Tips to make dough

 And besides that I like to make dough in a bowl, is so simple... and clean and faster... in the table is more time to assemble and in the bowl is seconds the dough is homogen, and the tip is from the begining and when still the dough be stick you do the mix in the wet dough with one hand to the other be clean to got the eggs add flour, and even atend a phone call. I use the clean hand to hold the bowl of course!

And other when I broke eggs I like to hit in a corner, the corner of the table, that is from my grandfather my grandmother used to break with the back of the knife, or with a big spoon that she use to make dough. Is that to have a crack that is straight.

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What reason

 One person that was on that city was there said that was there to knew me, because I was a spoiled husband, and hwen my wife went away, he tried to rape her and our kid of 6 years asked to respect his mother, she was inteligent but was saying a violent man enter my home to rape me and want kill my son, and I was in my deathbed I got so worried seeing that before die, I enter in the boy of my shot wife got a knife and stable him by the backs 17 times, and he said you stable me I answer yes I did, Stable you, you stable good, yes you aren't mad I stable you. So she return and I got well.

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If he agree with that justice who paid?

 The story natural woman is that she had kids because she like a animal want sex and for did got pregnant and deliver babies, so she wanted sex and did, my mother was another story, a man fooled her, she wasn't natural, she thought that he would marry her before she deliver, he promess her marriage, she didn't make sex for impulse. My mother was mother of only me.

So if my cousin was making justice and he agreed, I am today listen that was make a man sufer for that woman had 3 kids without a father,I don't know but I imagine the justice was a man pay for the nature that even is woman mother.  See the dark guy went away and fall the mulatto of the house so what he thought what was the justice he gay, having more men than she they were 2 piranhas. So he agreed but who paid? Or was thinking was that kind of plan with unfolding, and the besta was to came.

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Of whom is the sin

 God judge, He even like, and whe things are nebulous? Was the time that I though that Go was funny to throw a coin up to catch it on the back of his hand, God is human and not a good person, see? He had a time that He can determinate the side of th ecoin because He was fair. I was up here listen a story maybe is like radio signals, and are passing by my humble home that is in a place far from the floor. 

And I listen that appear that are multiplying 6 years ladies, with 12 years old gentlemen, but the story about her prostitution, the man that put her in the prostitution before said to her that she could make that guy of 12 suffer very much, coming after everybody, so all the guilty is of the pimp? This way the demon don't have salvation, he himself work very hard to convince people to be evil. The sin isn't of the demon... I if I judge would be against her.

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Wednesday, May 8, 2024

What we see is what we know

 And when we don't see is somehting that 30 witness say are even more sure. If had one moment that we have the right of lie was when we are to make vows of eternal love for a woman that had 3 kids to say that for one that are virgen. So the person had the right of don't confess a love that are embarrassing but if the person confess that love for a crowd the person give up of doesn't do that, who want that the eternal love of a man for a natural woman, she was natural she had kids... 

Once before I was married by a probably intelligent girl that talked about lives, she said to me don't say you love if isn't forever all lives, because love is a lie if isn't for all the lives, so she free me or that oath, and she was the light of my eyes, once she live me I almost got blind of despair. I only return to see when she returned, I almost kill me, she was only being self-suficient, she said that still love me, that she though that a woman didn't need a man after had the kids, we were rich. She could went for any land far from me.

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Something weird about my life in Russia another incarnation

 Also I never return to France because I had premonitions. In my mind had woman that was the active in bed, had woman that were man with another person, I started to had that impression after the marriage of the Indian with a woman of his country, so wasn't guilty of nothing but who don't want be offended don't give chance for the bad luck. So in that incarnation a friend of my husband asked very offended if I thought that woman was to suppose to be man in the bed with a man, I said no, that I was the image of the goodness an kindness, that he was hitting in the wrong place. But he asked that make me thing that I wasn't imagining things.

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And why, why isn't easy to see?

 Why I didn't want marry any of the options after the engagement with the prince of another country when I was from Greece, because could be  way of the prince got if wasn't for good was for bad. So the mulatto of the house was already engaged with a person that I risk my neck to help him, his worse friends was she and my cousin, I was all the time warning him about the evil of them, of course man think that the evil of women is small, so he wasn't my friend and gay engaged with my enemy, at least my cousin wasn't declared my enemy, so he choose the worse, what he want with me? I risk all my peace to help who? I thought that I make my life all the time more unbearable.

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Friendships and loves that weren't for me

The love:

I remember that, I was from England and this came before the lady that didn't deserve my love, so in my country I had a friend and girl that when I went to Spain to find my soul mate, she sai that if she didn't love me that she love and return to her, she was for the first time confessing love me. I wen to a fortune teller and she saw that in my life a love, the person that I went to find in Spain was as o ungrateful feel, tat fate turn something bad, and fortune teller came a person that make the evil in the life of a person. People said to me that I had to went to Spain to discover before marry with my friend girl, that could be destiny, so even my friends advise me find that lady. In Spain I got so regretted to went to find such lady, but things appear kept in that country, situations didn't let me leave. I though that lady didn't respect me at the beginning that was in another life, she confused me with a lover of another life, she was desepair to a be such man because one life he was handsome, I was afraid of she want robber my beauty for his ugly lover, and my friend girl went to Spain because she felt that I was in danger an said to people of there that we were brother an sister, with she I could went out of Spain, probably was truly love that save me. The fortune teller assecure her that I became danger and could harm her.

Now to the friendship:

And was that a person ask me why I didn't asked a favour of a person that I knew, he was kind gay, he used say to everybody, I said he would help me? If there was one person in my mind that I couldn't think of for a help, it was him. I said I never think that he would help me, I even though with scorn, what dreaming person, if I need a favour a gay I probably would be dead, they are a so imprestáveis, don't help nobody, sometimes gay is a state of spirit, of like of be different of everybody and why they would be good with someone?

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Tuesday, May 7, 2024

What is prime factorial

 And factorial is you got a number and got all the number since it to under till the 1 and multiply, like 6! is 6x5x4x3x2x1 that is 720. The prime factorial is a number that is near the multiplication of a factorial so resolve will make you see 719 is prime factorial see 4! is 3!x4 so I only hado to do that, I will multiply now of 2 and increasing till got to more next number of the number of the problem, so got the calculator and 2x3x4, lets see the result 24 still low 24x5 is120 still low, 120x6 is 720 so is the factorial more near the 719, so true 719 is a prime factorial because it is one more or one less than one factorial number.

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God knew everything but this...

 That power that He enter to Gzuz, He already gaved that to me and also worked for me is that I don't like to lie. He thinking that Gzuz is very brilliant, I when I used was 3 years old, and is you talking in the imagiantion of someone you mentalizing that you are someone else, people said that child are very imaginatives and do that easily, I talked since the one year, but the only thing that I manage talk like an adult was piadas - jokes, I coclude that I had an empty mind, and what I listen a lot of jokes, but I didn't repeated or use abusively I was comparing with what I was listening, I knew the punishment and is high, the Gzuz are doing that in the head of people using a image of a president. He hate the humanity, was my angelical milling that informe to me.

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Monday, May 6, 2024

About that time of the course friends...

 Had of that students of the cakes and pies that appeare a rich person, and people asking about that time, let me say, how people would know about who I am talking had courses around the city for all the years. He went there with an older woman and they got friends of a younger lady that said that was fat and lose a lot of weight, that will be important... I abandon the course but the gossip after... A friend said that he went to the bed with the friendship that he made in the course, I myself thought that he was gay, and my friend said to me why he did that I thought and said that even gay is able to make sex with a woman, no matters how they doesn't like probably was she that asked, she was all babado I though that was because she lost weight, sometime after another friend knew that was an venereal, oh I think probably is that a free sex is because she wasn't a serious woman, and she even a horrible desease had, moral make people with more decent bodies, friendship with sex this is the price she was the kind that sex wasn't a safe land... Who went if a gay probably is a woman that beg for sex, because normally aren't appetiteze for men. He was a gay so rude that I wasn't his freind because I was afraid of him. One day I almost laught that he was so unpolite that I was of the side of an student that work in someone house daily, doméstica, he also didn't like me because she was almost my age but poor white but with a coil hair, he was so eletist, I notice that she was kind looking for him and I like to be near the gossip he defend himself of a reaming girl at the side of the new friend that had alll the skin lose, I though that was so gay, had a so strong friendship with that skin lose lady because a poor with coil girl was with a long see to him. He was so offended and he wasn't also liking me so I got close to of who he ostensevily didn't like, he was friend of even more poor people but the man was so white that was pink, and the education, the pink man even was offensive with his new friend, bad don't you think he was gay wasn't wanting a girfrind but if the man beat her he if decent would have to defend, another freind said that his older friend was so interest on him that she was pretending that be lesbian to give a lesson in the other because the thing of they had sex.

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Things that help keep the weight

 Something that helps a lot to a creative work and is less caloric, is like that we want to the brain be in the level of hapiness and is saciety, but have foods that are prejudice, a long time of digestion the brain had that hormone that help him work, btu with some cost, the best food and don't abuse is the good quality half-bitter chocolate, with low sugar, low low sugar, what the half-bitter chocolate produce of satisfaction for the brain is better of another ones, isn't even processed to the end to release hormones, to much sugar coul cause headache, so a cake with iccing is better than a common a lot sugar candy for the brain, had satisfaction that is even in the food had appearnce, you prepare your brain to his reward, but half-bitter chocolate is lower caloric. And some food is like that you don't have the enough satisfaction so what cry cry... Sugar is a fast digestion, but see butter no! And if the cake had a lot of fat?

Another tip to test who like that was my grandmother, are eat food with fiber, becasue the fiber is heavy and cause by his weight to the foo stay a brief time in the stomach, so a very light food like FAT result to be a lot of time in the stomach causing his almost completely absortion, one easy fiber, my grandmother used to eat an orange just disposing the peel and seeds, she like very much eat after the lunch.

And the other temperance, isn't pray before eat, that make you think about the subject but is, when you eat think the satisfaction you gonna have and if this is what you want, like a meditation, see the problem of food? All the the benefits you gonna receive is something in the future far, had people that prefer a liposculture operation that is so risk, but is people are lazy, and this is without spent of time or pass hunger, but is so risk and a operation is agression to the body when have others options like diet and exercises.

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Sunday, May 5, 2024

Loved and hated professora

 I went to a course had sometime that the professora used in the 3 first days expired food, all the students hatting her... Because is to taste and not eat... Was from a famous school, the previous professora just the opposite and she was watching the students to they don't make crap for the other eat. Had things that was to be in the freeze and passed the day in the kitchen, and they want to put in the trash and she use right NOW, becasue nobody gonna die! People the students hating her make all the shits when she live to see the other group, so the food in the wnd appeared delicious smell good but I didn't taste nothing, because I sew how was done, she all the time cut a piece of all that cakes and pies to the direciton eat the good result. They love her nothing was spolied, she didn't lose nothing in the kitchen, the other all the time losing food for expired date.

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Unfolding a question

 About the chess cake if the part that separate the parts of the crude dough is buttered and floored, no, better pass oil to the dough don't grap much when the form came out. 

I find a picture on that site:



And more about cook, is a place that you need to give orders, or you never gonna be a person that can manage a big demand, when my mother give parties sometimes see hire two females employees, to clean the house and other help in the kitchen a lot, was a kitchen with 3 doors, the air was intense, a very cool down kitchen a very pleassant place to work, had to be doors in opposite sides, or the air would enter and not got out, so the air swipe the heat out, had to have a big table for the preparations, and was a table in a lock with key that the food was move to a table that was there to receive the food. Was preparation and a intinerary, she made the menu and the day of buy the supplies, basically you had to know all the dishes would be prepared to be one travel to the market, so you have to like to wrok with other people and know how to give part of the work that even an ass could do, my mother never like do sweet in the pan, that she put the ingredients and see the pan each moment, that was the auxiliar a labour work that even an donkey would do, never was my mothe

My mother said that one day that her mother would give a party, was there the cleaning lady, and his mother went to the market and took a long time there and my mother say to the cleaning lady do the cooked sweet, and when his mother returne the cleaning lady said to his mother that was tortured for 4 hours making candy.

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Answering a question

 If the cake I told work for chess cake or marble cake, no these cakes only are for the beauty and not for the intense taste of sweet bitter chocolate, you gonna suffer very much because the grow is diferent, even the consistency after baked is diferent even cut could be a weird result, pratically this cakes you do the dough and separate quantities of the same and coloured one with powder cocoa or powder chocolate, you aren't interest to taste the wonder of the chocolate you are eating a cake that you taste all mixed white and dark. Even had a special pan to do that cake, and that aren't cut is to you fill the white and the black dougs crudes in the pan, pouring them in each space and after pull the form to bake them together, the form isn't to went to the bake is only to place them in the pan without mix, people like to use a lot of filling between the layers, see you gonna have 3 layers or four, whole without sections I would use to glue the layers with syrup of chocolate to almost don't see and use an frozing abudantily, a lot of marshmallow an cherries, chocolate grated... 

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Continuing the previous article

And was about cake yeast, you know peoplet that work with creativity sometimes are fat, or have th evicio of the cigar, had even pictures of reporters or writers or pianist smoking when working. Is also because when brainly working the person don't want or the brain don't want feel privation, I had to do a work of illustration and in the kitchen was in construction because of the sink, I thought this is an absurd an painter passing hunger... see coffee is a solution to addiction.

So the yeast in the cake an friend, she another day was giving some "punctured buoy" ideas of business I say in another occasion, so she remember that my grandmother din't beat the cake pan with the crude dough in the balcony and she asked why. So a little about cake, yeast for cakes was bought in the pharmacy and probably woul be the sal amôniaco or salt of sodium, in my family always the chocolate cake was with sodium bicarbonate(salt of bicarbonate) that yeast holds the colour of th echoclate so intensify the colour and the bitter of the chocolate, isn't a sweet cake or gonna be an nescau cake, litte sugar, bad beated the eggs and butter, and in place of liquid make just water, the filling is another story could be with sweet taste, is kind of a bit dry cake. And the white cake is that way, no yeast because isn't the bicabornate of sodium is a mix of other chemicals, so my grandmother or doesn't uses or wasn't a table spoon but a coffee spoon, believe this is so little for th eyeast that the cake almost doesn't have, so the cake would not grow in the oven the cake was beat before incorporate all the bobbles in the beater, so if you beat that dough you are making misery with it, the bottom would hard like a bad cooked egg, type a rubber, with a lot of yeast the cake will grow because of th eyeast

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About food and kitchen is a laboratory that had reactions

 Substances can passes for two kind of reactions and is the chemical or the physical one, the difference is that the chemical are irreversible, and the physical are reversible, like chocolate you smelted to shaped, they passes of solid to liquid and after solidify again. But in one moment if the chocolate receive a lot of heat they burn, appear like a chunk of cookie, this time the heat make the reaction be chemical because the chocolate would not return to his first stage.

So in the kitchen we want this reaction because we want transformation, deformation a change of state, who like crude meat or eggs? Imagine carpaccio or the salmon crude in the sushi, they aren't exactly the dead meat, they had a bit of transformation... I sometimes think I would eat int the country that was invented, can you imagine that passes for an reaction with kitchen ingredients, see that isn't what an animal eat in nature they eat that very fresh, that carried for an market and after your home is so old that is a nightmare that we need a microscope to inspect and the reaction would make even a solution for that.

Sometimes in kitchen we want make scultures so the food need had the quality of be plastic, like the caramel with you make that bengalas of sugar, chocolate are plastic, some dougs is that the bake could deform the shape.

 And think that fermentation is something that is almost laboratorial.

Retturn in next article, return in about one hour.

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Saturday, May 4, 2024

This expression keep

 Going even with kicks, is that I fall on the floor and my friends are kicking me to I roll in the right direction.

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About make an calculation of

 Compound interest, the person can lose the calculation but go to the beginning of the labyrinth again... the person had to use methods to reach posts, that an work isn't all useless, type  3 years was calculated well, like each some work save the point to use as backup.

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The work is of entrepreneurs

 Work with money of others, create a project of success, maintain workers, is multifaceted person... had a good mix of products, start with the essential because the money isn't infinite, create some law of attraction for your business, you even have to know the basic of promote! So the success is in being an entrepreneur. A good project of the base to the attractive of the product...

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A question can a.person start without money?

 Yes but is for who want work, so you want a business and don't have money, what can you do? Imagine you want a store of cakes, because I make cakes so my example is with cake...

So if borrow money to buy a store, and work can you pay the employees, pay the rent and still live with what you need and collect money to pay the initial investment and interest for 3 years that you was with the money of a bank?

Also had the types of impressions, why people put the Mortgage of his house because is more than 3 years and the interest is low if you give something to assecure the payment.

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You want see I find a use for simple interest

 Type you are not a bank and you gonna borrow money for a friend, and you gonna receive something add to the return of the money, because you passed type 8 months without the money, is that money pay money, but say you don't gonna ask compound interest of your friend, but time without money is lose money because you didn't invest and money today and the same money after 3 years you lose because the money didn't pay you money and you don't use it, even Jesus had a parabola to stick the nail on the labour that hide the money, even Jesus ran a bank... Say if your friend return that money in 3 months or in 8 months you don't want receive the same... you can you use the static of a bank and ask compound interest? Is illegal gonna charge with simple interest.

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A good recepy of my mother so many people eat it

 And is soft candy, is that way... Because we wasn't wanting banannada, so you blend banana with milk and coconut and condensed milk and after blended passes for a pan to went to the top of the oven cook. Is delicious to eat with spoon, sometimes is need put more sugar to be harder, the colour is light.

Also when type she make the coffee with milk and had a lot in the jar she mix with condensed milk and make it right the quantity of coffee and is another soft candy.

What is used blender I think that is good use it, imagine that some recepies are industrials so probably even in a industry of centuries ago always was made in a machine like a blender an today is a thing so cheap that everybot can buy it.

About ice cream, the intention is to be soft and cream, don't have ice crystal, that make that weird consistency of break, so you have that recipe of ice cream of vanilla that had milk cream that would give that cream consistency but isn't enough and the recipe will have the egg yolk that is like the espessante and the not freezing that is the corn syrup, and the banana ice cream that I taught had years the banana is the espessante, and the peanut honey cream is the milk cream, and honey of that peanut cream is an kind of syrup, and sweetness and also had powdered milk and ice, to help in the emulsification and all that in the blender, and also had that ice cream industrial that I taught that the milk cream would be replaced by the vegetal hydrogenated fat, that replaces the fat of the milk cream and will receive the corn syrup that is a type of don't let the crystal of ice be there, make the ice cream more heavy because it gonna be tack, and the liga neutral that I taught previously home made very health help in that consistency and taste, and the other ice cream was of avocado, sapota, sugar, powdered milk ice in the blender, you can make that be more vegetal is your choice, the avocado is the fat of the milk cream, or the vegetal hydrogenated fat, and the sapoty is ant freezing to don't have that water crystals, and is espessante that helps in the consystencies, so creaming recepies.

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You know about the Melena

 This is the problem about of Melena and his antagonist, is that the other could give 4 savations and Melena only 3, who is the bigger salvior? An isn't the person, why? I know that the antagonist had spent his salvation, so it doesn't save no one more... Mayb because it was a demon using a candy name, like soul friend, maybe his salvation is eternal prostitution and they are in a worse hell, so isn't 200 people killing the humanity but 4? Se it betrayed humanity and makes appear they were 200... See how he was poor selling something that it can't give anymore, so they are the 4 biggest ... of humanity. The most putrfied spirits of humanity.

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How was that miracle

 About that job with direction, I wanted to have more memory, but I be a director in previous life, I was type shut down to be used for me of the past, because had miracle that are you doing something incredible seeing because had a soul of another person using your body, mine was different, was because the person said so I don't know the time, that I need do a work of 14 months in 3 months, this is good for me, no! Because work for 3 months don't make me an artist a director, I was hire for not time enough. And I am sure about how time was, no! Isn't an blackout for me, maybe is me dragon of 3 heads with one dreaming and this is my memories, so is good for mediocre people no, they would be unconscious.

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Friday, May 3, 2024

I was an understanding brother

One day my brother said that he because of his relative he needs to get rid of me, I understand that you want to spend the night drinking cachaça with your violent relative, I'm going out to see my grasshopper girlfriend.

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That brother had relatives that were only his

 I was type fast learner, my twin borther that had 24 years old and me I was 6 years old, he had a relative that he explain very much the parentage, and I understood very well, he had passed venereal for my brother so this was a kind of parentage, I wasn't talking with my brother that had a relative because had passed to him disease, type my brother was dirty and had venereal relatives.

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My guide explain that

That the person try don't be occupy by the serpent and the person contort, because the serpent try got the body of the person, had who is immune, and doesn't effect so say and if the serpent internally win how the person behave? That even the boots isn't so certain against the serpent.

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A party that demand a lot of condensed milk

 And is Saint Jonh, São João, have a sweet that is condensed milk, with boiled with no seasoning rice, bake in the top of the oven till be creamy, have the same with yellow corn, same the same with canjica white corn, and ha with peanuts the seed without the shell and skin. The person can serve in disposable cups with plastic disposable spoons, the person even can make some cash with very simple candies, in the right time of the year, corn and peanuts even is something that any matuto had at home, St Jonh is very loved in the countryside because is for who they pray to have rain in the plantations, so is 2 small plant culture that anybody can have in the smallest space of earth.

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Each people each use

 About how of sweet would have in a marriage, in past like the quindim, wasn't common the calculation be for howm nay people went to the party, because... Not everybody would eat it, you can calculate how many people would want, and the sucess is kind don't left one. You do all that soft milk candies, and some people are educated and don't gonna eat each of what have, when I went to parties and was small my mother regulate to I don't eat much because have kids that pass the rest of the day vomiting, the thing about the party is everybody eat a piece of the cake... Candies can't robber the stomach atention of the people, the sweet was type the table decoration to the cake doesn't be alone in the table, with all that spent to cover the table be in a marriage without eat without have a sickness is don't desire luck for the couple. So in my mind a table that left very few is type a sucess because the couple spent money serve sweet, wine and champange, and is very auspicious people consume all, today who have banket make a calculation to a poor eat and pass the week with the stomach forrado. About rice in the couple I think that when people thought that significates that people desire that they lived a long life together that the years multiplicate and the happiness be endless and them commemorate many others happy celebrations, like silver and gold and diamond bodas, silver anniversary of 25 years of marriage, gold 50 years of marriage, and diamond 75 years of marriage, but when people thought that to desire that a couple had a lot of kids, that is so unpolite. I had also to say that sometimes you can be giving a brunch for any propose and that is the breakfast and lunch so is a more food, can be a party in a factory and the labour person want to eat more and better so the quantity is so different.

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Thursday, May 2, 2024

In the past, people were more elegant than business people

 Imagine that in the past of the confectionary of my city nobody would got all the contracts for a marriage, or gonna be the cake with glacê marble or the truffles with glacê or the quindim. Sometimes all the money doesn't make you succeed, if you live in a hell, my mother once sai that the problem of be baketeer owner of buffet is that everybody is gorgeous and the person is a bicho in the days more important of the year, exhausted and ugly, Christmas, New Year, Easter, the person had time to do a very decorated and artistic cake and the truffles with glacê a quindim, and some frosted pies... maybe some would be even new but made by days... a kitchen that are at all full steam ahead, is a hot environment and all that heat influences in the quality of the food that is already prepared, when the quality get down the durability drops a lot, all the suffer that you pass for food that are of confectionary influences in his quality. Where this kind of food is sale the sweet is under cold environment and salt in hot machine that keeps his temperature. So the normal was hide 3 cake ladies to do that... But today the people are business people that hide workers to do that, or how could manage accomplish that type of contract. Gonna always to have workers to help. But the size of the kitchen with more 3 workers, even the kitchen gonna have to be remodelled to be bigger.

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Confectionary and candy making

 Sometimes I think that confectionary had all about with candy make, just with more liberty because you interesting things like cakes, breads, cookies and some truffles. So what I know about confectionary could be used to candy making, that is type know smelt sugar, practically. And people asked what is glacê, glacê is type the category, when we cover cookies and candies with that white coat of sugar is like glacear, and we can make the same glacê to drop in the top of sweet breads, and you put after the baking, so had the glace that is liquid, that m&m that cover is its glacê, that nuts with that rigid cover of sugar is also a glacê. Is delicious cookies covered with chocolate with sugar croast is more sophisticated, so you use in a more elaborated cookies, for cakes are that I know the marlbe that after sometime in the top of the cake will be rigid, I knew the one make with the whites of the eggs and is common for special occasions like marriage, and I learn to do one with the coconut milk and sugar, had a very interesting taste in the cake they are only for to cover, also the marble of white of the eggs with lemon is very interesting, is like the official thing for the marriage, I don't know what give more presence the real cake or the dress of the bride, and when we don't cook to make the glacê we gonna have one that will be pipped, the marble we fix with the had an deposit in the cake and we gonna close the gaps till be the solid covered, and after we come with even an trowel of even building just is so heavy and have the ones culinary today, the ones that are pipped we can make arabesque let dry of one day to another and make bridges in the top of the cake with sugar structures, edibles...

I only eat this candies that my mother did because when I born was past and is the candies for special occasions, that are the sweet truffles with no coconut with no chocolate, so isn't the brigadeiro, or the beijinho, but to be with nuts crocante in side the milk truffles, with walnuts, grapes, or green grapes, yes green, isn't to be creative buthink in things that remember marriage, happiness eternal, and after molded to be long, or a small ball, they will receive instead of chocolate granulado or flocked coconut a coat of glacê and there you can use light colours of pink, blue and yellow, and came with the smaller tip for petal and make a rose with the for pipping glacê of rose, and the smallest tip for leave in green, or can use walnuts a half, to put in the top and paint with gold, in powder, see the gold with no alloy are in powder, all that people use in gold are poor in relation of gold, today had gold edible paint, but gold in powder is edible... metal are depressive because they are poor in relation to a living, so theoretically you gonna lose energy to them, but this only if you sleep in money!!! And also after the coat get dry, because wasn't bake so the sugar had that they dry, but when they are cook the aren't exactly sugar but smelted sugar, so have people that put corn syrup to be more tacky in all the recepy isn't a substitution, so is that I say had a lot in common, because is about sugar, also had something the sugar can caramel and sugar can açucarar, that is the opposite of caramel, you know what we want açucarar? The pineplaple that are hard and had that coat of sugar, açucarar is a way of even preserve fruits, so you also had to know the types of sugar, not so fancy like brow sugar or raw sugar that is used to bakery, is caster sugar and the cristal sugar, because if you choose wrong you don't gonna be a fairy making sugar delicacies. Here is fairy hand, have who like to say sugar hand. And also the candy that we make a coat of glacê had to be clear colour, you can cook till change to gold colour.

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Now there come the story

 People when I worked hypnotized, the story was grogue that way, working as a director, I was good lawyer, convincing people to choose me to do the direction... I said that the job would be beautiful jus that nobody choose the special effect because would be one of that had in the computer was hundreds, that didn't wait for the other director, was even legendary in that studio that he fooled one for 3 years, because all the time he live the filming to do one movie. And two years he only received because hadn't a movie, that his costs was like the Brazil's debt even today was to pay because was salty the price. So I show the movie that he did, wasn't that incredible, he worked much better for that movies... Was kind a short movie by contract, is a job that the person does for a 3rd party, he didn't have all that interest of do a good work, just do expensive and impossible of pay, the effect was already made only had to film the person against the green wall and put in the short movie, all made in 3d by good 3d artists that worked in that studio, but is this way, is what had there in the sac, like Wizard of Oz... so my work is made you famous! $$ You gonna be on TV on next week! And I also said I even say why I help you, because I want be in a better situation even if I can't see it, type I want a better future even if I see the things dark.

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So to the story

 Before sometimes is important to know people that are in the border, if you want to know what is in the middle, why because you are the person of the gossip and in the middle you are expected with anxiousity to listen a lot of lies. People that are in the margen sometimes is the last instance of the truth and the rest is sheer lie. Americas is like a big monster, is dangerous and you can't just say is your imagination... you can't just ignore... just think that I would rest my head in the pillow because is far... one day you can see that is just inside your country, or maybe are already inside your home, one person that spected to be famous in his own land, travel to one country of Americas and there got the famous with 20... that he wasn't gay but prostitute. You think that is so easily forgotten? He thought that was in Americas but he when was famous had to enter in that land where he was confused with a prostitute.

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About that work

 Rich people can be poor, probably not... So much hate so much prejudice of origin, today so lalá. Is that came in my angelical mailing that he had worked for 20 years, but when came the new director, the studio give him that he got the fame with the other working for him, but he got lalá and doesn't remember the years that he was a labor director, but he hate so much Germans, even the cinema when he started he was famous by that in one art scene, have people in Americas that descend form people of Europe and know artistic people from there and listen the gossip, but not for who live in USA. He even said that wouldn't let got in USA an actress from Italy of France because she had be in a movie that the director was German, old was the less prejudicial name he said... 

The story that I would say in the next article.

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Wednesday, May 1, 2024

Ideal and perfect

 I think that had a rule that for Greeks the perfection is something that you can't reach, in the maximum you can be ideal the perfection is probably what is seeing when you construct ideal. What is ideal is something that dream be perfect.

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Have that on that conception of society

When I lived in that live in Greece had that there was an Ideal Comunity or Society, that the humans that was there had also to be ideals, there weren't accepted moral aberrations, desvios morais, and was comum-normal banishment penalty, kind eternal, type the abnormal would be alijado-shirk of the society and return to the animality and barbaric, because it doesn't deserve the society, Japan they would be criminals, there would not be Greeks, and all that tarados there to make all that joça. Had people that went only to destroy. So understand there were punished some moral unaccepted kinds.

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Tuesday, April 30, 2024

When I am cool there is no witness

Was that I was in another state I even travel with a group to study out of the State, to make vestibular, to see a conference about law, to make a contest for public service. So I was with two females friend in the shop to buy in a fast food, and one didn't wanted buy there because the cashier was a black man, we asked what was her problem and she said, my friend sai that I do can talk with the black cashier so you can bear also, I said what problem he appear be a decent person give the money that I buy for you. She got so mad with me that at the night she was dating people of the city that was black, and me without came out of the bedroom because I don't have to give a chance for a mad one.

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So is that had people that thinks that do and fly

 I like the ripper had power of a vampire and taught in USA that the are a prague, but he himself is a vampire of the worse kind... He is a powerful vampire in USA, bad to God eyes but good to who don't know what he does in the dark, I myself doubt that was good be a vampire, was the most fast to give me power. I just never was bit or bit, my wives received in the ceremony, my sons are powerful but born half wolves, be vampire is a choose. 

In Brazil I see things so badly, but I didn't save the enemies of the ripper, but 300 that he didn't save because he also was bad... Is automatic that way I give the permission to the climb. I make things a bit fair.

Also we have a problem the ripper went to Earth to say that the person can save of the way he say, who more proper to save the evil monster than who give the person that save? I say to God because I had vision God in the crowd had mothers... The ripper is disappointing 6000 mothers, that are there because the person was for big evilties.

And I have to say to that guy that I passed my power for a represetant, he saved 16000 during his sleeping, if he doesn't sleep he would not save, is automatic, was all my power, were the best and finished today, I see all corrupted from Brazil, he doesn't need meet personally no one, is automatic, how the ripper is a show I choose someone that would want charge money, and is for him, because knowing the Heaven I give the opportunity that if they have money they pay and be saved, isn't for me see, was one type of justice, pay received, 12000 were there because were male homosexual, the bigger sin was be gay... In one life they will pay who received my power to save. And had who complain of who I choose to save, was a black man, but he was handsome, for me is all Ok, I said for the one that didn't like that when the black was ugly and stink he like the black man, that I was keeping an eye on him, he had problem with black that was decent persons, so I think that I choose right, beauty is a sensitive thing an I don't like who have problem with it, that doesn't notice that, more of my justice.

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Monday, April 29, 2024

Is or isn't what really is? Spiritual affairs

 And could have a sould that are like the maitroska, came out of another soul endless? I listen so much crap, a soul that is leaves that fall, if isn't a soul inside another, like that an invader that want to born in another person, type a rich person, had a lot of person that want to born in people that are considered brilliant, so is good leave all that capes because isn't the person, but and if it isn't? Had a way of know oh had my theory, was the way was resolved in Heaven, today is that way they give any answer just is needed the person with the satisfaction of an answer, but the old method is, travel to the end of the end and not of the beginning, the two are connected, and way? Because we can got the soul in the day that it can use millions of years like being minutes, and put the soul of the own person to be the guard angel of the person in the beginning of the beginning so the guard angel, that is the own person would resguard the person and watch if the person multiply in pieces or is many souls that got inside the other for evilty.

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And had people that say

 That eat banana is easy to peel had those people know tangerine? Or eat the tangerine with the peel on!

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I will return soon with something more dignified!!!

That guy

 Also doesn't like white people have problems with medium color races, so what means racism for him? But for sure he is racist, he homosexual an homophobic, he is like hate humans? He is type alien?

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And had that people disagree with me

 God use that and I use or how I gonna say something that I am not sure? See a person said that I am wrong they were delivered in the Island by a flying whale, an Boeign an big airplane, I had to went there to see, people only remember after I said, how I would say that shit of story? A big animal, of the size of an elephant? I can't call it elephant? And yesterday people said that wasn't an coconut tree but a black man that drink salt water and piss sweet water, do you think that I went there to see!

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See also had that

 So had Jesuses that aren't saving? Have something that is validity... Even having the power isn't to be used of any way... So the person had but doesn't work... Say do you think that could came a small Jesus and save the persecutor of the most powerful Jesus? See probably even the salvation is small... you gonna be with all the humanity scaping from the bottom of the hell to die and people see you die after saved. you have to went after the most powerful Jesus ask to he save you. Is that try kill the salvation of trillions. Accuse Jesus? Can Jesus save if he still doesn't save himself from an accusation?

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And more about the river

 I didn't remember probably because isn't even at a glace about me but, people said that had a strong man of 1,20 meters that tried to save them and die. That once in the river near them, she passed the legs around his neck and he didn't reach the surface anymore, an the man give the kicks on his mouth. His friend was laughthing in the margem at our side, appear that had others witnesses, when they kill the man and he kill her he passes to make menances to everybody, when he reach got out of the river his friend mock he so much that I was thinking in leave I saw what I need to see, but when I thought that man almost got drowned, probably he didn't had breath and his friend was killing him, so I stay there with my brother to see if things occur well, and he got in the floor of exhaustion, I said to a friend that like men, that if he can make mouth to mouth to he returned and he said that he was gay but didn't wanted, his friend put the naked ass on the ass of the man that almost got drwoned an said to my brother that had a blacksmith near and we can got the blowpipe to make air on his mouth, like had gas station far from the city he was kind that we change the horses shoes. He returned so bad he was when faint, and he said that we kill the lady, nobody notice the weird man in the bottom of the river. He said that he didn't need kill her, I sai say that in the police station, and he went there to say that he kill without a reason... I didn't laugh, I do that with naturality, and I even don't know what the problem... People do so evil things but don't do things like that because doesn'r have the intelligence, imagine if a evil person would not do that and think that didn't nothing, the thing that the idea doesn't come.

We used to say that me and my brother were both fake, we didn't laugh, at the time laught was show low intelligence the idiot laugh about everything... Men used to carry comb to comb the hair in the pocket and we used to comb each other, and said my dear friend you look fantastic today... Just because that he used to say that we were fake...

Our father could be a king but he wanted to be a common man, spending his money and making kids. We had a few blood of India, I think we were from France...

Because of 3 wars I was named the Master of the War, because of strategy and I was had 18 years old. So people used to say that my hight was because I would be very important for the army.

He also used to complain the life of our father that lived a pacific life, that was before the crusade, speting money, he also complain of rich princes that lived spoiled because the money of the father, I said in the otherwise money makes excellent people.

Fole fôlego...

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Sunday, April 28, 2024

Make something be easy cooking

 People that open a dried coconut, need to be dry to had that part to grate, so much easy it can, that my mother used to say that we do that to see if the person had good head, you break with the back of the knife, is very breakable, you had to have a heavy knife, and when you hit with the thin metal of a heavy knife you predict that it will break for sure in the longitudinal, when the person is crazy the break sometimes came a weird crack, crazy people sometimes doesn't had normal human abilities just that... You can even break with a hammer, in a Island you gonna hit in a rock in the floor, but the break would be for all the coconut, and the other is a perfect two halves. Could be a cutelo knife, but doesn't need.

Another tip, to break in pieces things that are locked in the ice, you pose the knife and use an hammer that ones of construction, you can even use this technique to break bones in the kitchen when you don't find that cutelo, that small axe of the kitchen, with the hammer and knife is more precision.

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Listen about that salvation

 Listen people explain to me who is the other guy, he is the ripper, the ripper also saves. See I am got to knew that hethe son of that prince wanted to know why he born with a lamed arm, listen that you was of the side of the prince in one day that the ripper was saving and the two was punched, for the prince was some prostitution, calm isn't the normal ones of Europe be with men for money and not the paranoia of Americas, but the punch for you was empty but wasn't without consequences, and you received born lamed, also I tried pull you up, I am that Jesus of the rope, but you can't climb when I call, wasn't the prince but 10 souls that you was their friend, so be friend of bad people we are confused with their crimes... They didn't let you climb when I call.

When people called me to help I see those people and I think the other Jesus the ripper was justice, even I went after the other, the man had rape a young lady, the lady in others lives had 3 deaths of men, I thought what disgraceful victim, always the serpent for the men, and after came his friend, a lesbian, a ridiculous man, and that fall almost dead, because he was the manipulator, at least one deserved be saved clean? And them thinking that their crimes were small, oh even the ripper was to good for them.

Now about somethings call that beautiful lady to she save, she said more marvelous deeds than all of Jesus and still hasn't been disraciada, call her there in hell she could be also that wonder.

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Saturday, April 27, 2024

About culinary

 People the best cake toppings, type the most classic and one dream. I think that is very classic Marshmellow and Chantilly, and the difficult of the two:

-The chantilly you have to buy milk cream of refrigerator, and not the one canned, put in the refrigerator to almost freeze, put some sugar and to be more the type a bit of vanilla extract, I use the Oetker, an beat but one thing this isn't the chanty-mix so once in the right state stop or gona became a piece of frozen butter and you gonna lose you heavy cream, butter here is so much cheap than the fresh milk cream. The chanty-mix how much you beat more whip more hard, the other you lose the chantilly. An also the true chantilly you can mix after smelted chocolate of bar and the other the mix will smelt.

And of course that in the planetaria arno, the others will be butter, never you gonna have chantilly from the fresh milk cream, the whip is perfect, but with the chanti-mix the more simple beater work.

And marshmallow is the right point of the sugar smelted, if the smelted sugar, is like that boiling in the bowl till came cold, but if isn't the right point of the caramel the chantily would not had that density of chantilly isn't funny, and if passes of the point could had that dark colour and taste of caramel and not of chantilly, so a failure, isn't so need put the vanilla extract but could to be more fancy, like scandalous taste very notable, so is much easier make the Italian glacê that appear that is something that doesn't work but I did does work! So what is you put in the pan the white of the eggs and the sugar and if you like you can flavour with vanilla extract or or or lemon juice to be the aci version, and you put in the fire very slow if you are bad in kitchen you can use Marie-bath, till the sugar got dissolved and still hot right in the cake mixer, and had a lot similar qualities of the chantilly and is much more easy, and only an ass to lose it.

And a dream was that, the person mix eggs wolks, the yellow with sugar in the pan cook in the top of the oven and after give consistency with that caster sugar till be in the consistency of open with the food-pin.

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Crusades the first was exploratory

 But first to where were that couple, we only see them again in the first crusade. They to be in eternal honey moon, to cure so much dementia, to an island in the middle of the ocean to be very faithful for each other, probably was a bird call elephant with wings that dispose them there always, there had only one coconut tree, and when they make them fall down they were move to Africa, to be white and they had psychological blindness that was of be so much racist don't see a black person.

So before started the crusade, had a river that people make a lot of bet, of who can cross it, I was with a cousin and with 16 years old I was 1.90 meters of height, so I walked. But was there only me and my cousin nobody knew that the river was deep but not very much. Didn't cover even my thorax.

My brother was friend of the woman and bad friend and adviser of the men, he went to a witch to he drown in the river and she save him, in the day I was there to see, and he really was growing and she was a short woman, she jump in the middle of the river and got where he was of empuxo - thrust, but once near him that was jumping to breath she started to drown also and grab him to breath, push him down, and me and my brother sit to see, I also was a man, just young, he started punching her, kicking and choking her and pushing her down, was almost satisfying see that woman so cheater be beat with all the violence for a man that said that she was decent like the nudity. Oh decent thing to see, when he kill her I said that when we are stressed we doesn't notice that the river isn't that deep, and he notice that he can put the feet in the bottom of the river, but he threatened to kill me even before and kept saying the same things. Int the city he was accusade of kill her, 

So started the crusades, but with the accusations, he would be rid of the accusations he passed with honour but with all the shit that was told by everybody that were there, he said that who was seeing the fight in the middle of the river was who kill her, but he acquired put my brother out of the crusades, type he got knew that my brother plot with the murdered woman that he would be drowning to she save him.

So was formed the army and we travel and once there, in one of the explorations we were separated in groups to explore and returning say what we saw. He wanted that we two be grouped, there we find quicksand - areia movediça, he said that I crossed first because I was taller, we can't move the legs but we can pull the leg out and cross over, we can't is push forward the leg, and I was tall was hard but I crossed it. When came his turn that was laughthung because I would die, I put the spear in his chest when he was in the middle, and said that we had business to discuss, isn't to deep get in the knees or I cross you now, you'll apologize for saying you were going to kill me, and he said and if I not I gonna sit here to see you rotten. He had said that after the end of the crusades, he would kill me if he didn't find a chance before. He said that would sen someone to find us, no problem but I am having my chance, he asked apologies and I turn the spear to he hold it and I help him got out, he pushed with all the violence to mutilate my hands, I'll tell them where you are so they can come and get you. When end the crusade I receive the biggest reward I got super rich. And he went to defend himself about all the accusations about him.

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About Greece

 You know what was the most severe lie that my cousin said? To she be beat for 2 days in Japan? I never kewn who was my father, that Albino from Japan had a son in Greece and was my friend mulatto, he was kind medium, he had a daughter with my mother never said who was my father, and I never knew that I was Albina, he took me to Japan to prove that the Albino was his father, Albinism was so rare that how could another person? I would never guess that I was Albina because I never see the Albino from Japan, my colour was ok, but the hair was straight and pure black, the Albino of Japan the hair was straight and black but I didn't knew, he said to his ugly bride that he was my father and she told to my cousin and she went after the mulatto to say that I knew that he was my father and I hatted him because he was swarthy, he really wanted to kill me, and I would never know the reason, the mulatto of the house that people tried marry with him before I don't remember what I knew about him, he was so characterless and bad, and with that candy face what fake person, he was kind with an cape of sugar, for a man so with honour the woman that went to bed with his father was more than perfect, he had choose the right person so I though that was the engagement of two person that perfectly fit. My marriage was so miserable, my husband asking what I thought about the mulatto of the house, I was so scaried I thought that in one moment they came friends, after I got pregnant he passed to say that I ha to abandon him for the mulatto of the house, so I asked to passes the pregnancy in with my family because he was insane and fraighten me, I had to say that I knew that the Albino of Japan had two descedents in Greece, I never said nothing bad about, I never imagine who could be, so my cousin had the risk of be the other, so the Albino said to her of everybody in Greece you had to hate your brother? Help that woman?

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Friday, April 26, 2024

What I think. Is this racial?

 So is this racial? A person asked me what I think about the woman of Albino went with black men to full the husband kids that are black, why any of you think that she had that right? This is what the right of the women in some Asiatic lands? Why you don't give the right t of the Albino of be father? What he produce disgusting? An albina woman can have babies, nobody estereliza them to they doesn't have babies, morality is something very perverted in some Asian lands? So is that evilty can be used without no morality in some countries, what kind of person hate so much that people, in my mind any one, they are different why? I had said one day that the mulatto was create by God for her love, she wanted to be mother of mulattos, when she invented the other God thought that humans could be like horses and rabbits, they doesn't have mulattos, the animals aren't mulattos, so she invented that is a combination or would born an white or a black and she wasn't sure of what would be. She loved her idea, I think that she could had mulattos being with white men.

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The last satisfaction this were for African

 That was about fidelity in lawty in friendship between Canibal and a white man, I already had be from a Canibal tribe in Africa, and I saw my goodness of be Greek girl, the forgiveness, an African was so much to die for the white friend, that a treason was the last satisfaction, that was to kill to eat the old friend, and I saw a treason with my own eyes, and I never would have my satisfaction of eat my traitor friend, was that the first forgiveness of the Earth, but come with the death and the betrayed eating the traitor. Is because risk very bad the own life is a proof of love of one for other... Is like the friend gonna live with him forever.

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For the lie what is put hte leaves in the basket

 People explaining my laws. Means that you are taking care to the lies don't kill you in the future, I gonna ad that the lies accumulating indefinitely is a danger that only grows.

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What innocence

Leaves on the floor of the garden can be place of snakes and scorpions, and in a mount in the floor even more, lacraias a very offensive worm.

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This is one of the problem of the lie

Greece, my female cousin pass shame in Japan, the lie is that thing that only makes prejudice. She could said for the king of that land that the being used to his advantage could make him a rich man, don't you agree? But she was already in troubles in another land... Say that she wasn't a liar, well thought, why she didn't do... At the time I didn't know a liar is a person that his word doesn't value. I thought that people make things of the wrong way, we can only sweep the garden, we have to got basket to put the leaves on. She always saying the benefits of the lie, she lost the power right in the moment that she could save herself this time using the lie in her benefit? She returned, the story of the beginning to the end where 4-5 years. 

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Greece also had that

And about my marriage I didn't know at the time but what I knew after die. I in my moral talks with my female cousin had sai that lies were very wrong when feelings was involved, and that had time... Lie at the time was something immoral? Was kind a human ability, but wasn't already considered immoral, was type curiosity, when we say the truth we say something that we didn't thought, was something that we see or we know but lie was fruit of the imagination, the lie you thought! So was an exercise of intelligence, so say if say something that you invented and say to me and you make me believe is me the liar to repeat your lie? If lie is something that you used your intelligence?

And once the mullato of the house said that would marry my the ex-bride of the mulatto that already was my friend, I said that he went away that I did wanted to talk with him because his bride and me wasn't friends anymore, today I knew that he said for some Greeks that the one that were would marry with a ugly girl and he would marry with the most beautiful girl of Greecy people laugh and said love is so beautiful, do you really think that she beautiful, everybody laught about he thought that she were beautiful, she was almost nasty... The nose was so ugly, of old maid, that with that nose why a demon need the horns and tail that nose was enough to make someone run away. Isn't a nose of black people... The nose was kind Imaginarium, one day I said to her that she supposes collect coins of who wanted passes a good time looking for her nose, was so weird that ask so much moral of a ugly lady is even cruel, but my mulatto friend was dark and she was lighter, she was very lovely things compensate a nose... When he went discuss with me I didn't wanted to talk with him... She was an ugly devil and he was a mad devil... He said that I could said that the other was ugly, I even didn't understand why I would call her ugly if was something that everybody could know because saw... I said to him what hadn't chance of he knew that she used him in her self-cleaning stories, today I am knowing that my cousin said to him that beautiful was the other, she noticed that he had a very short vision, confused sitting at a table my eyes that were blue with her eyes that were colour of gold. I didn't wanted talk with him because I was writing my testimony about my life, is like I am was writing testament that in place of be of a money was about my death. I was writing that my Universe was in collapse that one day the all would got encounter and the Universe would die, that gonna one make a baby on me and I would die and that I wanted the baby was well, that the certainty was that I would die. So when he went to talk with me, what I  care he didn't understand that had a baby wold kill me, and I was to marry to got pregnant and die, things common in others life wasn't my life, he in any moment had a problem without solution, all his problems was a lace that could be untidy, and I is one cut that kills. So I didn't wanted listen anymore about problem that we put ourselves, I was think in one that was fatality in one that was without return, when I got pregnant my clock would started to count walking each to death, and I was walking to see my kid and the normal was even didn't know him, so for me the Universe would die with all the stars starting to run and when they encounter the Universe would die, also his problem he all day jump in a pitty.

Today I know he, and my groom went to bed the two, when was the time of he be man what humiliation, the other had a big dick. He asked to the other to they went to a witch to they swap the bodies, to the other be more properly used... And he discover something that he was almost blind the other had a very good vision, he went to see all the girls he went and all they were more pretty than his bride. I talked in the delegacy because I didn't know with whom I was talking, he didn't returned the body to my groom , his father was so hateful that my groom on his body went to that time to the woods because nobody liked the man that molested a kid. My groom asked they undo the swap but, he only acquive when I died because he was afraid of the other kill even the baby the boy was of him so the baby was his son, when I was to recover he open my sew with the fingers to kill me.

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Thursday, April 25, 2024

Is a question of logic

 Descedents my ancestor had, I am a descedent, he had kids that had kids in Africa. I had even cousins htat were very Japanese the great...grandmother was rich, so descedents with kids with Japanese they had, but in Africa, had others. But all them had kids in Africa, the curse are for others. Is just a question of find another person that liked the story, I am not the most Japanese I had relatives in England, and my cousins had relatives in Japan, so find someone else...

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About the story

 Russia about my ancestor that was from Japan let me say the end of his life. He when was a little more than middle age, lived my ancestor great-granmother, she was rich since the birth she was mulatta and wanted marry him also because of the colour, no matter if he was in Africa selling fried fish, he make a lot of money after the marriage making external oven even in Europe, I doubt he walk around Europe married with a lot of women wanting a fair with a married man, so when he was older she abandon his wife that was my ancestor to a much younger woman that was black, he lose all his money so fast, that I think in 3 years he was poor, his young wife said that she would went to his land in Japan to see if he had a heritage there, he almost die of even that embarrassing, my great...grandmother accept him back, and say to him that he didn't of be worried about money that she had money enough to they lived well, and he die just some years after that probably was also 3 years, the witch appear that sit on the story.

I remember a bit of that story, but listen my in that life future boyfriend he isn't son of the king of Japan, never was he is nephew, his problem is because he had a life that was a copy of his cousin. Even he doesn't want a son because his cousin is mad if he knew that would help any one he probably would kill our kid, so even he didn't want. I know my two kids weren't in my body but sons with more then one man isn't what I want for me even knowing that happens with other women, so is a contingency.

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