The Devil or Jesus have that thing that is in vogue

And is that that salvation is mine, one day that someone try make me God for be more accept I almost got inside violent of the brain of one to say some trues about names that bother, don’t want eat don’t eat.

Was that one God that was my Grandfather or Grandmother or Father invented the fruit of the dignation here (we have fruta and fruto) fruto that means that don’t came from a tree, Jesus didn’t born in a tree, and was the fruit of the dignation, make someone that is offense with the accusation of prostitution be dignified and be in a state almost of joy because she was offense and think that humiliation leaves to God and the person start to think that is dignified to be prostitute, and the person want more and more the humiliation, and with the time the person starts to accept to be prostitute, the person get very ridiculous and probably the weak souls was the ones that went to prostitution.

So I invented the tree of the indignation, was to be opposite of dignation that was only for prostitution, and with the fruit of that tree the person reacts a false accusation. After making that tree people want to give me the name God, because was a salvation but I could use more two names or Jesus the One of that tree or Devil that isn’t Demon, Angel can’t. And of course, I was very generous the salvation of Jesus only work for who embrace him, I hug almost 10 that didn’t like me and had ate the fruit of dignation to them could be salved by the fruit of the tree of the indignation.  Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

Universe and something small

Something that I do that replace meditation

And is that is set my peaceful place, is to have hours of positive energy, that is during work painting, writing, reading.

The isolation - I like to have a room that is closed, but of course that need do be with air circulation,

My scene - is climated is like this I like to live in the ar-conditioner.

The sound – what works for me, I used to turn the TV in the CNN, but the TV could not be distraction, so the sound is loudible but low,

Other scene that works a movie that I love that make me placide but isn’t to be distraction but introspection, I like movies that have good picture and back sound for almost the movie and the music is good.

The TV is to be good the sound is to be good but the TV can’t be in the most important spot in your room of manner to catch your attention.

The movie have to be one that you had knew very good because if you watch the movie would be distraction. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

Something that I do that replace meditation

And is that is set my peaceful place, is to have hours of positive energy, that is during work painting, writing, reading.

The isolation - I like to have a room that is closed, but of course that need to be with air circulation,

My scene - is climated is like this I like to live in the ar-conditioner.

The sound – what works for me, I used to turn the TV in the CNN, but the TV could not be a distraction, so the sound is loudible but low,

Other scene that works a movie that I love that make me placid but isn’t to be distraction but introspection, I like movies that have a good picture and back sound for almost all the movie and the music is good.

The TV is to be good, the sound is to be good but the TV can’t be in the most important spot in your room of manner to catch your attention.

The movie have to be one that you had knew very good because if you watch the movie would be distraction. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

That for certainly kill and where to start to find someone

One night that I was sleeping and I almost die and when I wake up I saw an alien like was a soul and was that the thing was holding my arms  up, that kills, see who die of Crucifixion die because their arms are held for hours and not because the wounds in feet and arms, the lungs get so stressed that the organ that fails is the lungs, appears that the person hold in the cross live for 4 hours, who didn't die at that time they broke the legs to the next day had died. That is based in the documents of the Rome Empire that became Catholics. Also if you want to find something about Jesus that isn’t in the Bible probably you would find in the Vatican I psychograph that there have a lot of Paulo because the Rome Empire. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

About heaven what happens that day

And let me said that all the devoted women that stay with the Goats in the past, climb hypnotize and our Father fuck them, his fame was that He was 40 years old have 200 sons and don't lose the virginity ever after He finishes the woman He gave her for us the Sons that have the scary 12 years old, very scary, and a question for what country? For all the planet the Americas didn't have goats, we knew Chinese even with there only had one to climb. One day in Earth the one that was to fall in the goat temptation was my brother closer, He born girl and pass hours and  hours in the lounge the others went direct to the bedroom, they dressed like a penitent in Heaven, once my brother went to the bedroom, he was 40 years old in Earth, I said that let me get first, I imitate an 80 years old man really to shock him and he wake up, and I was saying that little missy and put two horns in the Head are you horny, stay there my little lady that I went to evacuate and came back, I hide and listen he said I am a man now itself defence the next that pass that door I will rape, I got knew the dick get inside the dick was everybody souls, they get so mad that carry Father to went inside the room, I stay listening outdoor the others was laughing, when the father get inside he said the father love and the dick get inside the heart of the Father, the Father get so mad that said come up with an story to I say outside to shame you, I say let to me I have an idea, came out running and You gonna see, I thought with myself now I revenge went to Ceará in the End of the World, and He came old dressed with the uniform of the crowd of the Ceará, saying the Velho is good, the velho is good, and how I was the librarian of that Heaven, I make the work of the journalist and put in the door of Father bedroom, that in that day the Father of 200 sons lost the virginity and got 1000 years old and the young lady of 40 years old came with 6000 years old. In other day Father put me in the hand and was breaking my bones of course I said that I was cult and he only read his bedside book the memories of a old rascal bitch. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

About me this strange moment that happens only for one

Is important to know about people to people don't need to imagine how I am. And was something that happens in the past and follow me for years. And was that I boy invaded twice my school to talk with me I treat him bad. The first time I thought that he was a nerd, and he started to tell about Nerdland, and I thought with me that was a nerd becoming a butterfly and I ran before the end of the transformation. A friend of mine said that I was rude and talk talk, I thought you are a prostitute, and said you are ridiculous, and talk, talk, talk, Ok you would find a job before me, and thought but you are a shit and don't worth nothing, and I said I don't like the subject. And the second time that he invaded my school was to explain how would be us get together and I said that you know what I think that I want one to keep me (marry and maintain) and ugly like you are you suppose to be very rich, he got bad and said that he would came very liked and destroyed me that I would never find a boyfriend, I didn’t care for the threat till the 16 I wanted to become a num. One day in the last year of the college a boy that was so handsome said that I was bad but could date me, I remember the threat and I said that didn’t want date him, the boy cryed and said a lot of confuse things, let me say I have a life of monk, sex is something that could be very sublimated, you could live in state of celestial happiness and peace, understand that who need very much of sex live in an infernal state, and I am not sorry for being cynic. Cynic persons don’t have sex, see. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

A dream about End of the World

And was last night I dreamed that humanity is in the company of the aunt of Jesus, that makes the persons wrong the way for years with hard exercises. And that a person in the past because thought that was a genius got to Heaven to talk with God, and God displeased with the visit said that the person was a prostitute and went back to Earth. Once there the person that was very cocky went after powerful witches and many of them make the person prostitute herself getting down to hell with the head down to use the mouth to do this and after went up to the skies to prostitute herself also there so the person prostitute herself with the Demons and with aliens, once of so got up and down she talked with the demon and the Aliens about Jesus and to they came to Earth to say that they were Jesus and chase the humanity and the Aliens liked very much the idea, in my dream I thought that I want to find Jesus to ask what He does exactly that saves. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

Births others incarnations and the kingdom of horror

And first let me say that kind of birth I had a lot of sons in the past. The first time was when I suceed my uncle in the kingdom of horror, He was a strong king that conquest almost all the Europe in a Era that was closer to the prehistorical. About the birth is the prostate for hormonal problem produce a cell that produce ovule, the person expel blood for the anus and didn’t know why, at the time I married a male cousin and the throne had two men, I was the male of the couple, my cousin when see me be choice offer him to be my queen, he said that I could emasculate him I said that wasn’t need the sex would be my dick on his anus. During my kingdom, all the execution had a trail, and I could be very severed to be also horror but I valorized so much the life that was keep a person in the prison was invented in my time, someone passed almost 20 years in the prison because I didn’t want executed nobody with less than 40 years old, that I thought that was a life course, with the person want marry could, write a book could, is that Jews wrote before the prehistorical time, write was what I most thought possible in the prison, I really execute but my kingdom maintain all the widows and orphans. I wasn't the first choice to succeed is that the first fall when all the nephews came to talk with my uncle to say that the choice stink, my uncle get so upset that choice me he said with that high he for certain have 20 years old, was because I was tall and blond I came from a place in Europe that had a lot of blonds. So the time passed and when I was 60 years old I was evaluating my life and all was perfect and have I son was important but I was happy but came a sad event my Queen start to bleed by the ass I thought maybe he was sick, I was biologist one kind of doctor had also the alchemist, he because a hormonal problem produce a cell that ovulates, and he got pregnant, he was so softness because the motherhood that I decide leave the throne and return to my country with he and our son, I gave the throne to the cousin that lose the place for me in the life time ouf my uncle he came very popularly during my govern and we fleet to my land a place in Europe that the kingdom never conquest.

So one incarnation that I was generate that way was that, many years before my birth my father born because his father put his sperm in a bottle and cheat his friend that was hermaphrodite to see if he was fertile, and the mother of my father is a male, the mother of my father appear that was resent with that, the father of my father was a teenager. Many years after the father of my father misunderstood an bottle and do the same thinking that was medicine, and I went to a prostate, so my mother was a male my grandmother was a male and my mother was the father of my father, of course that my mother complaint about the situation during the pregnancy and I said that I was sick to he be worry and didn’t abort me, I said that menstruating cell with green sperm I didn’t receive so good material I was sick, people pray for my recovery, other time that I was better installed and listen again complaint I said that I was ageing and need cream for my eyes wrinkles and got a big pot and massage my eyes, and said that my wrinkles eyes cream was mother ass. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

My dream with Jesus and you think He could help?

And was that I dream with something that I already knew, and was that, that Jesus was molested by the grandmother I also know that because that He can't save nobody because he isn't invincible, I also can't take his place because in my past has an evil woman I also wasn't invincible, she was my cousin she made my grandmother said that I was a monster for beat her she was older, also she had an affair with a married man everybody in my school know also that the they have vaginal intercourse in the school she had fame of have the vagina big, and the students also was researching about psychiatry and got knew that children that have a big vagina or a big anus are the kind of liar, so the married man was a photographer and like to make her beauty in the pictures and all the other ugly. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

I psychograph about aliens

And was that one was saying that they came here to the Earth knowing all the fate, is that they will came knowing previously if they will win or lose, and also they never try change the future like this they know why, when, how they will lose and they don’t try change the future to try win, they was thinking that to try change the future is a soul worse them they and they would like to have that soul to come to Earth one that has permission to be more evil and change the future that it already knows. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

About the truth in Earth and in the outer space

And is that the acaso hazard only exists in Earth for the Universe all was mean to be (estava para acontecer, was to happen), here we have the Father in the outer space we find the Universe if you went to the space the Universe is a mother but a evil one is that in Earth you will not see that you have to be in a spaceship to see the evil mother, the most commom is She want to eat the person soul because everything came from her all the souls born on her, a evil mother is still a mother, be afraid out there maybe you could find the worse souls that exist. Climbing the person could die in the love of God I listen this in a mass. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

One incarnation that I ‘ve suicide

And also is because for sorcerer the moral about suicide is other, you don’t know that we can live in a different kind of existence and sometimes we have to die in one place to be in here again.

And was that, I was competing for the place of counsellor of a king in the place of the wizard

And wanted the same place the other wizard of the era, the case was that had the place of the wise man for counsellor and he didn’t compete for that place but he was trying to make the idea for the king that he want a wise man for the place of the wizard. But in one moment of his delirious, he thought that to be wiser and more powerful he would be lock in a cave for 80 years to be wiser and more powerful, he was that way with 40 years old he already have grey hair, long bear and was bold he was the image of a wise man, I said to him that how he was reasonable and intelligent. Once he in the cave the place of sorceress was mine, after 80 years the king must unleash him from the cave. Let me say that passed the time the king died before the 80 years from the exile of the cave. Once I get knew that I was so involve in the cave prison that I wouldn’t born when I want if I wait the expire natural of my life I would trapped in heaven or hell till missing 3 years of the freedom of the other sorcerer and once he out the cave remembering the king the wizard place probably he would remember me but if I suicide I could born to be at least 10 years of the escape from the cave. I was again with 20 years old and I was with my friends and the most stupid remember the legend of the sorceress in the cave and he planned climb the top of the cave and came inside by a crack in the top of the mountain appear that in the cave have stories that have internal light so  probably was a crack in the top of the mountain, he appeared a long time after so hobbled, we the young people used to drink in a bar that had a table outside for us see people pass, so our friend return and said that he was raped for hours by the sorceress of the cave. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

who is good is beyond that critics

Some people ask my opinion about homosexual women in movies have children with black men.

A moral reason - you can imagine a lesbian that could be a very bad person that gets very mad with who have case with a married man that is very narrow I not in favour but the fact have nothing about me or with you or with the lesbian so why care or talk about? so for who is lesbian black man appear don't have owner if you are lesbian, you don't have a man for you so for so much bad character have a child with a black man is the shot, bad salary men also appear haven't owner much of them are black.

A genetic reason - is that for who don't like nothing of men who is the stupid to give that profound desire, there is no man for that woman, so black DNA is far much better than none DNA, none DNA generate no child.

An ethical one time I listen that history came from the first world, in my Estate disloyalty is very serious, we have a lot of defects but disloyalty is something that everybody here think is a serious sin, we make a lot of jokes, we talk shocking things those are our defects. So the thing was that a romp get from a gay to help her in her project of have a child but appear that after be interesting to a man got appear others men to mix their DNA with the first, that is so antiethical the gay was given to her 'deep desire' of be a mother and she don’t think that a gay also want be a father if she stay with other she only make good for her, say what the problem a gay have a child with a lesbian probably the church won’t command them to a abortion. Is like a falling machine after leave it place nothing could stop it, of course have the miracles but we would be talking of the field of the impossible.

About where I live

Here the mix with DNA is endogamic, because that my Estate isn’t so liked, who is from the land have child with people from the own land, is just this probably is the place on Brazil where less have exchange of DNA with others Estates from Brazil, is that the beauty in here is so specifically that characters from Brazil would make babies very funnies, the people isn’t so high, have beautiful hands and feet, people of others parts of Brazil have this very ugly, from the Estate countryside from where my relatives are from have swarthies but there have the theory that have the beauties and uglyies swarthys, for an instance the hands the fingers be darker is a ugly DNA, for instance I have at the sides of the eyes little brown trace is a character that I decend from beautiful swarthy, is important that because if we don’t have that in mind a make-up artistry could make us be appearing be swarthy even we being light colour. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

We have to say our dreams to they came true?

So let me say what I dreamt when I was a child to do when I got grow. Maybe helped to that one day the psychiatrist of the school asked me if I like girls, I don’t remember had answer but what I thought 'for what I would like a girl without that I can’t get satisfied', and of course I don’t trust the other the 'boy', 'I in a past that I can’t remember used to be so happy that now limited I was feeling like I was an old man boy and girl didn’t make sense for me', the old man only want dresses and makeup, I could even be fake and sadist and make friendship with girls, I was the opposite of that I was very good person was that someone ask me about something that remit to sex was boring me with the sadness I wasn’t feeling like a lucky girl and of course not like a good man, the person was making have happiness thinking in I could give me pleasure being bad. So my dream was do what my parents said to me to do I didn’t say how, and was be a successful worker with millions of money and adopted a baby girl that was my copy, my big vagrancy, I am sophisticate vagrant I like to study and work I am not looking for sex or give birth, is also my way to like the persons, make my copy replicate me, Brazilian DNA isn’t to suppose to be that pretty, the beauty here reflects the beauty. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

Travel for other existences and other planets other incarnation

And was in one incarnation that I was from India. And my father was maharaja, and he travelled to the space to know a nebula that he saw from Earth, he was hit for a ray and became a ray to travel for that spatial body that was many centuries of years from Earth never travelling in a spaceship he could in life rich that spatial body. He could make the travel many years before but he waited for the marriage and had a son, he had only one son, he raise me until I have the age of 4 years old, so he pass to space with 24 years old, and he was hit for the ray to travel to space, was a way of don’t have a father, imagine that if you don’t have memory before the 4 years old you sometimes can’t even remember your parents, for me he was alive and I could saw the nebula that he went for. And I read much about the studies of my father to help me the life without a father that I missed so much, and I planned to make one travel that was in his studies a travel that would endure 40 years, but I marry and wait my son born I marry an Indian girl they was much more patients and generous, two things that I thought that was needed to raise my son, when my son born was everything set to the travel, I was 20 years old. Was enterprise self-sufficient like a planet and was huge, the explosion that make exit the floor and reaches the outta space the huge but very huge enterprise, that was of a size a small planet probably explode all around, and I would make the way going in ‘discontinued animation’(animação suspensa) in a sleep capsule one good thing about ‘discontinued animation’ is that if the door be opened the person wake up in the same moment. Once there in the end of the first part of the travel all the crew was 40 years old older, and I look myself in the mirror, young like the day I went to sleep, the destiny was from Earth a black spot in the space, I emitted with my big gun rays in the black hole is a long story, so after the adventure, I said for all the crew that I have already decide in Earth that the return they would sleep and I would pilot the spaceship all the way to home, to they return alive I was the younger and have already 20 years old, in the return for home I was thinking that I exceed my father in return home to know my son, of course, he would have 80 years old and me 60 years old, but no problem. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

About the first dream

And was that the first dream I saw my grandfather that have died have some years. And the dream wasn’t my life I just was close of another person that was living that, but I thought that was me, and she see pass a man that she know from another country, to I think that was my experience I saw a person that I know from another land so I don’t know with whom she was talking, so I think that I was offending with words the person, and I thought is that what I planned for my insurance, fight with a very rich person and die young, is so good someone made the choice for me. And he invited to a party in another country, so in my mind I take a helicopter, to another country and once there in the party he menace so bad, that would be rape with some people that he would bring and if don’t cooperate he had friends that deal with prostitution and would be amputation, everybody that rebel they amputee, I thought with me what kind of criminals that I could find if I escape from that party, what worse could happen with me, and two persons that was there was watching me and when they see me run they follow me, was the same that see two men, but I was warning that was two women, once out there they were talking and me listen and understanding, the two was there have some time, was nothing good, the man that brought me was the same that put them in that life, they was abuse, they was used and times in times they went to those parties, that was the best part, they look good because the friend of the friend make esthetical surgery for them look good, but times in times they were frighten with a machete, was good for them run with me because if them be catch they could say that follow me to capture me back, we was hiding one time we get inside an abandon place was almost day again, and there was a carnival theme park that with electronic toys, and the two say for the two men that was there and stop them that have a price on my head and they were following me, I notice that the men in the park carry with them machetes, once time I really get far from the two that was with me, and was running between the carnival toys, jumping over, running and in one moment another man in the park scream to the others don’t touch her she is my woman, he was middle age and black I scream, thank you, mister, and I achieve run from the park that we pass, once running I find a friend from my city that was there and run from the party because they try to involve her in prostitution, and there have one helicopter to Brazil, and the person that catches the helicopter also run from the party and would help us, so I return to Brazil, we was leave inside our college there is a planet of so big, have yes a place that a helicopter could land, and my friend said if you call your parents, was already the morning, have a lot of persons and was an event, my school used to have a lot of event to the students get there even in the times that haven’t classes, was parties, festivals, sports, studies, São joão etc, so my friend said if I call my parents just say came catch me don’t say nothing more, because the man was rich. I wake up and return to sleep and I was there and the student counsellor was given a public speech for the students, appears that have time that she didn’t appear in that work, she make a special appearance, and after she was in the school she went to a travel to other country and once again I travel again. Now without nobody sees me. After the dreams I listen that rich man like very much to get with Brazilian girls, because he have a girlfriend that is from a rich country but she was very prostituted so he make friendship with brazillians to prostitute them and make them more trash than his girlfriend I listen about that person since I was under 5 years old, he probably is old, I think who want friendship with those rich person. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

I dreamt last night with Einstein and space travel

And was that was two dreams and the last was about Einstein so let’s start with the last one.

And in my dream I was in a monastery in any place of the world and there was the Michelangelo one that nobody would recognize because was he young was 30 years the most 50 years and he had travel in the time to our time, and there was a woman of the first dream a kind of 60 years old lady but that work very much with young people and she a have a very good presentation, and she is kind of  school infant-juvenile counsellor therapist, and how she is a counsellor of a catholic school she was called to see a person that was in a monastery I was there to see the person because of the first dream. and after she talked with that person she walks away but she was still in the monastery, she was free to walk there so she was walking alone I was hide and was following at distance but if she turns back would see me, and pass running very fast a short person the person run faster than a normal human and was dressed like that doll of a horror movie Annabelle, and kill the lady but see the person pass at my side, to do it. I run on the opposite side and I find not very far of the murder two groups of musical bands they look like a kind of Goths I already see that she was running back for me, we was in a long open place corridor and the musicians was at the end of the corridor and was a curve and we was hide by that curve to her, and I was thinking wich group I would follow they would separate and climb to practice in the top of the two campanary, and they would catch the stairs of the bell tower, and remembering that she had a brain of a computer I remember that she had to study all the possibilities starting for the first so she would came for the first stairs that was closer, that was so fun, 1 human brain 0 computer brain, is that way the computer find the solution because it try all the possibilities, and for sure it kept the answer for the future, and the computer didn’t knew was a human that teach him, he didn’t need research the possibilities in linear order, the computer could be 200 computer researching at the same time the same mathematical problem, I could recreat that with human what you think about 200 mathematicians researching the same answer with of course with method to don’t repeat the same work, the brain master is the person that apply the method. Is that the father have to be more intelligent than the son.
And of course where is the Einstein he travelled of his time to kill the Michelangelo during his travel, using the owns manuscripts of Michelangelo to travel in the time also, after I wake up I listen he said that he have the right to kill the Michelangelo because that thing of God asks about the Einstein intelligence Michelangelo write grotesque things about the Einstein to him don't have future. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

About that stone to meditation

And was that, I already say about the stone that I used before that visions let me say some that I remember of that time, one moment I listen the Demon said that was seeing a light, appear that to you have some revelation the demon get close and bother a lot, the demon show itself very small and the demon saw light in my ass, it was very disturbing, the guide at that moment went away, the only thing that make the demon don’t see the light was the rock I just align with my ass I didn’t fix in the place, and the demon starts to ask where is the light, at that moment we suppose to be in the hell and who help us is another hell soul, and in the beginning we have to pass by a cemetery, and there is a person that is far and appear very big, and all the time the person insults very much and the person is sit in a big throne, and the person say all the time that his dick is in our mouth, don’t have how you don’t think about that and blow to don’t have nothing in the mouth, you start to see something flying, and the thing get in your mouth because for the thing it could trespass a body, was by the cheek, once I was dismiss because the person didn’t stop insult. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

When meditation come medicine

And is that why would be the advantage of be medicine and not only meditation is that you can imagine that came to treatment an person to get cure of all this modern life sick, like to much information that came headache, and if would be medicine the treatment would be faster than a meditation therapy would to get results the patient would need more time, and medicine would get results in the first session. And what is that is this first that machine that is attached in the head is to read the brains waves and see in what tune that the brain be peaceful and itself heals, this is still meditation and the medicine would that machine attached in the head make any person waves be in the tune that would come of peace, placid, calm, heals itself, and others good sensations. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

About study and read

And one moment of the university, I was doing the last years of the University from the begining of the morning to the night to finish the University in 4 years and a half, and one moment I saw that I was having headache and wasn't paying to attention in what I read. I change my diet, in the last year of school I read that chocolate and aspartame give headache, so two things that I ban from my diet, sugar also gives me headache, I use ciclamato monossódico. So when that happens that was very rare I stop and said for me like meditation a self talk and was something like this, why I am reading to make a test, imagine that read without memorize that I not getting in no place and I think with me lets make an emptiness thought to think about, is like climb the mountain in my 'mind screen', I don’t please me with food, in the most a coffee with milk, because is hot is like tenderness, this is hard for everybody I don’t want a small achieve, I want now let me say if I have one hour I would give an hour of that I only have 20 minutes, maybe a nap, maybe 20 minutes of music, and I return fresh to study, TV I think consume more of your cold brain and heated also, I said to me to don't have headache I need this, read, so I am need convince me that I need that study and the headache always went away, headache sometimes is product of the fact that we didn’t represent for us the need of the read. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim