About my marriage when I was the Sauvage I am not liking beast

One of the princesses that I didn't date, we get know since school and she was fat but I hug her, I was thinking that I want get date all the princess no sex just friendship, but I would marry her because I was mulatto but I didn't say for nobody what I pretend, I want be a good boy that doesn’t get the best for himself my misunderstood of being good, I was all the day in the company of one princess or two and said to my future wife, that who want a boyfriend should don’t ate so much, a princess that is fat never gonna have a boyfriend, once I draw she eating in a dish leaves like a caterpillar she asked the draw for the teacher, she start to collect the draw that I made with her, she many years after had a book of them. One day that we had something like12 years old, how I was one of her friends I went like the girls and my brother to a farm that she wants to show something, and there she said that she would lose the virginity with a pig, I get so disappointed and I said ‘her name’ a pig is white but isn’t human, if she was so desperate even a black man would be more reasonable, they was black but was human, I said ‘her name’ if you did this I would never talk again with you, I cry of anger, I get so red that people didn’t notice that I was crying, think that was only anger, I am no more your friend, and went away she said she was remorseful, she said she would not do it and she promises, I when get home a had a lot poetry for her and start to tear it all at pieces, my brother said why you are so upset with ‘my wife name’, I said I pretend one day marry her and if I had said that to anyone, she would have done and everybody would hide this from me, I was so good, imagine people hiding this for me to make me a fool. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim