About an incarnation t I was black and from Arabia

And in that incarnation, I've known there were mulatto girls in France, so I planned to travel to there, was a travel full embarrassing situation. I arrived in Europe in any country and I would travel to France by the train line, had train travel that was luxury travel, maybe I thought the longest way to went to France to enjoy the upscale travel. By the way to France in the train I bumped into French people, first was an old man that came to talk with me, I talked perfectly french I always dream travel to European countries and France was one of them, let me say what was embarrassing, this old man was gay and talked with me because he thought that a black man with blue eyes was so exotic he was the passive but I wasn't expecting that kind of invitation, so the travel was long and that travel has French citizen of elderly age embarking in all the travel extension, and the French gay had a lot of old ladies friends that passed me a line, I was so respected in my country, I was travelling alone I even had 20 years old, I wasn't used to that. Was a long way to France. Once in France, All the mulatto girls dreamed of got a white man for them, so imagine all that embarrassing I passed only to know that. But having travel and even stay a little in the city was very stupid, I find reasons to got in the land for some time, there have a fat, blond gay that was young I rent a house to stay in the country, and the fat, young gay was making my mind to I be bad and became a black that date the white chicks of the city, in my mind I was thinking that I could be the man of that fat guy, he could be my white girlfriend, I pass years writting letters for that person, sending romantic presents, he didn't want me, was flowers, chocolates, all that kind presents. One day one of the mullattas came to talk with me, that was hard for them find the white men of their dream that they had the plan that I could be their pimp and they would went with white men, and I could lay with the mullatas if their have a white baby wasn't mine but if the baby born black was mine, that the prostitute went also with the pimp, she lay in my bed and says to me "Enjoy black", I had a name nobody in my country addressed me with the name black, the persons only call me by the name. I was polite and said that I was rich man and I wouldn't be a pimp in French, appear that I was very hungry? That pass my hungry. That shorten my visit and I went back to my country to know that my brother went to Germany, I travel to there once finding my brother, let me said that when I said how was my travel was written the dangers that I teenager could pass travelling alone, my brother told how was good his travel that he was well treated, how I cried to went to France I could had only travelled to Germany like him. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim