Some from the past

 Memories from the past, after that day listening about blacks my mother needed take me to his work because the maid didn't came, so I thought with me that the person was teaching me to fail in life, worked in the office-room with my mother his collegues, and also two office-boys and the two was black, so the person only teach me be a hateful person, they were so polite with all the bosses, everybody of the room was boss, they was thin and that make then be even elegant with the office dressing, there I knew other girl, that was saying on their back that they was black, let me say that they was dark but have phisyognomy of white people, I don't know look a person without look his face, maybe my vision was good, she was saying that they was dirty and stink, I thought that she was caming rididiculous, offeneses call attenction from the offended, one uncle-or-aunt had said that blacks was uglies and stink, today thinking maybe that girl that I knew in the office was a little blind and only notice their color, because they wasn't uglies, people!!! give glasses to your children, especially girls some of them even don't know the difference between a young face from an old one, so imagine that someone could today have a daughter getting sex with married and old men because don't even know what is seeing - an old man. So my uncle-or-aunt said that blacks were ugly, that two probably was an exception, I think I am right I like to trust in beautiful people I don't care for those movies where the monster are nice people, all the building was knowing that she call them dirty, how many others blacks would have in that building, that office had offices all around the Ceará and in others States of the Northeast of Brazil, one day she would find an ugly and dirty black. Sometime after I saw her again and she said that she was irresistible all the men wanted her, I thought in my old friend and thought came back you are not so bitch, the other is more, his mother paid a driver and she said that he was black, I thought the life is so miserable if she was so ill-mannered like she was in the office probably he already listen that horrible shit she says, she was so dumb why she would take care to hide his offensive talk, I thought that what made she started to talk that was see a black she was very careless talking loud. I thought that the danger of that driver kill her one day that was alone with her in the car was high, at the time have much news on the TV of the Ceará of people that were killed by their employers. 

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