So the end was bit diferent

I was so critisize that I said that a leave when fall in the river don't know where gona stop, and where take could be my hapiness. Before die I was asked in marriage.

I didn't married with the mulatto but if a Japanese, I don't even didn't knew of a Japanese thought about my condemnation, who came to marry me was a rich man that had make for charity operation to very young girls had babies, no one survive. My guilty was excess of perfection and vanity, I would never would have a baby, and I was already a juvenile.

My marriage was by proxy, I married without know the groom, once I signed, I thought that he was still in Japan and he enter the room, he was a bit fat. I married a Japanese that had others wives.

I passed to doesn't receive any visit because of my civil state. He took me out of the cell to a house that he bought. When I got pregnant I heard the way that I would die, and was of the operation, I aske to be sew because I want live a little to see my baby. 

When I was waiting I passed the time in the cell and people visit me to see me thru the hatch, the example of a girl that would die for excess of vanity. So I knew that probably was people looking me, and I waiting for the time to pass.

One day when was near to the advent, the mulatto came to talk with me and offend me. He was saying that he had a woman that acquive had a baby and he was today fat, I answer that also had animal that gets thin when want sex and we have to bring a female for him, he asked each animal is, I said go by the streets and ask to people, he return angry because say to him that was the dog. I say to him that people say that fat he had only one third of the beauty, he say came here close, I answer no I don't.

When was near asked to my husband if he would take our baby to his country, in place of my parents raise him, that he asked for one of his wives to be good to him.

When I saw the baby he was so small, that I really wanted to live the longer that I could to take care of him till he got weight and got baby with a normal size. I only lived 2 months, maybe the sew wasn't that good, I was almost believed that I could but I died.

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