Is this love?

And I have listen my love-to-be and was like psychograph, I returned to listen he, he was saying lately that he wasn't 24 years older than me but 16 years older than me, the first time that I listen he was when I was a child, I think that I was 8 years old, what he was saying was that he was full of veneral diseases, he was from the cinema and famous, and he got that from actresses that was easy but they had a lot of veneral diseases, that one day we wold marry and he would pass that for me, I said can't you think in cure yourself? He said not that I went after to a ginecologist, and he was saying that he was very young and the veneral had make he be hairy, I think with myself something that my father said before, Oh ugly kid, be so young full of hair is ugliness in m city the white around here when adult is hairy, when the man has legs without hair we think that he have blood of Indian or African, but nobody born hairy, the person came hairy when grow, he keep the speech, and said that I was dumb, I reply when I said to the news that you are full of diseases yuo gonna see who is dumb, I didn't do it, I could for me is live for ever in someone heart, one that I don't want know him ws that he said also that he would date me and after abadon me for a collegue of school, she was so bad that he only could be also bad, at that time she had a girl in her class that was that more beautifull of the class, and the higher note, and she make funny jokes about her with a ...a (a friend with masculin name adding only a a in the end of the name) and I listen, that she was rape for blacks in the school, that one collegue os class pushed a cork in her ass, I almost cried because them was saying bad things about a girl that was pretty, she also was blond why that flous doesn't like blond pretty people? Is because I need to say the nocive person that in the end he was going to replace me for. 

Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim