One time that I was alone - where I was from?

Maybe you were from there and remember what country was there, or what city. And was a city with a weird plague, at least was that what my mother told me, that one of that shit about men and women and went ot the mother and father, this time this way the father had to amputee the legs of his first child, and this way the other kids were free of the plague, but a father could have the legs amputee in the place of the first kid but the second wasn't save, irrational don't you think? Cruel don't you think? What was a mad king? I was in the second generation, very close of the first, my mother want so much have a son that she never told who was my father only had me, I was a case for the law, a kid with no father, for them I had a biological father the fact they didn't find who he was untill that moment but they woul keep searching, in my mind my mother give me freedom, and I didn't wanted have children, don't be crazy I didn't emasculate me, let that jewellery in the place I was virgin, I thought that I would not touch any girl I run from my city, I was wanting hide of the shame of don't have sons, in that time was shame in my mind, I run sad that I would die one day and never would have kids. I wanted to walk away from any human for me that was serious. I walked alone many times, So I thought with me and talk, maybe to don't lose the gift of the human talk, sometime was years without seeing a human, me and my past of came from a morbid city, but I care for my appearance, I cut, comb my hair, I was thinking that one day that I die I would want that was in a desert and the Earth cover me, be alone was time for so much reflection, I knew cities, girls I never touch one of that way, but I had dates with 500 girls but without sex, if a boy needs a little of a girl, don't you think that they also want a little of the friendship of a boy? With 40 my alone conversation came more fun, I started to disagree with me, I started to explain to me my reasons, the conversation was getting good, maybe I was coming convinced, me criticizing me like that was a debate. One day I passed for a Vale and there an Angel tried to kill me, I was faster he had a knife, I achieve make he lose his knife, he said that he was hiding a Heaven. How I don't kill him, he showed me what he was hiding, He was male the others were all girls, they started to talk with me,  I suspected that they were the conversation me disagreeing with me if the Angel didn't attack me I would not find that Eden, I had already passed for entrance. They knew that I was the man that didn't wanted be a father because of the weird law of my city, about my thought about be shamed for don't be a father. The Angels but the male tried to seduce me, I said the law still exists? They said that the law didn't reach where they were, so I pregnant those Angels, when the babies were born they were so intelligent, they look of an intelligent way appear that they were talking. The Angels said that I was useful now I could go away, they only wanted to have kids. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim.