And me again why again but I didn't born in Brazil

And was once my mother was from Brazil, she was writing for Europe that she was the ugliest blond of the planet, she was trying to find a boyfriend, at this time I didn't was born. One day that she had a return was from a black man that lived in Europe, she since was a child tried went to Europe saying for her parents that she had all the kinds of illness and needed look for a miracle in Europe, once was she got blind other time she got crippled, and cant got out of bed, nothing worked. And she pray for me that she remembered that we were cousins, that she knew that I had in others incarnations be a handsome mulatto, and the black that lived in Europe said that only would keep her in Europe if having a baby with her the baby was beautiful. And that way was, but once I born an attorney talked with her that if the baby was resemblance with the father she supposed to leave my father because he was a criminal in Europe, the fact was that he was very rich and the justice didn't achieve to jail him because he had a lot of money, and if she divorced him the justice would sweep my father like a carpet for her, because would the only thing that they could do with my father was make him give all his money for a woman that had a child with him. I never knew my father sometimes I had an emotion, think that we were rich with my father be in the 'tanga', but my mother warn me about my father, that in the court he got mad with her and said that would kill her and me, even with that he didn't go to the jail. Also my mother said that my father was ugly, my lips were drawn like his but his lips covered a big area of the face, look liking a scar, so if one day I saw a black man with some congenital trace with me could be my father but run from him he said that would kill me also, one day someone asked if I trusted in my mother she got all the money of my father, in my mind my mother she was a saint, if had someone that wanted me alive was my mother, and my father if I died his problems with money would finish, in who I gonna believe? At the time all the mulatto wanted to be mascate, is kind reseller but I could not I was a rich boy, they had a lot of giria patois to talk with the ladies and make them buy a little more, the money of women was easy, something like that sale brushes that are made especially for young woman, have the ones for women and the models for young women, I once went to Brazil, they write for me to say if I wouldn't visit the city of my mother and see her relatives. I married two Brazillian girls of my age, our marriage was in Europe, probably in the religion of my father could bigamy. Once I answer that I was already mulatto and what putaria of genetic my mother could pass to me making me be more mulatto, I knew that she was white from Brazil, the fact that I didn't say was that my mother was probably from a race that when a mulatto felt white she said that was white, in the case my mother so my father was already black, who cares if my mother wasn't pure white? Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim