Another incarnation How I didn't got fuck if he didn't like me

 Sometimes we don't get hurt because we have the courage to put our guitar in the bag and go back home. And was in an Incarnation where I was a girl from Africa, and I was from a village where we have congeniality with Russians. My parents were mulattos and I was white, with blond hair, I went to Europe to be a singer, I was 16 years old, and I was in the school, my hair was gold and I passed to undie the hair to be platinum, and for a girl of 16 years old I was very tall, was my height that made me be chosen to be a singer I was very tall and have only 16 years old I would have a lot of time to become a singer and was already tall, in Africa the girls used in the school shorts and top to practice exercise, we running from a lion with a heavy European dress even the lion would complain easily to catch hard to peel. So I appear in the theatre of Europe with small dressing of Africa, showing my legs, and a tight clothes showing my teenager complexion, very lean, I was very noticed, just after my successful appearance my agent had another idea I would sing for some time in a boy band that was needing a vocal, maybe he was wanting to make me be before learn sing be a singer? And who tried to pull me a leg was the boy band, I got so afraid of them that I thought that they were trying to deal with another agent using me, I really didn't need that my family in Africa was rich, I hide me even of my agent and with almost no luggage I was trying to return to my Country with the short money that I had, even with short money I had my rights, I had even the option to went to the police to say that I was a foreigner in that country and that was afraid of my friends in the land. So I was wandering around the city, we have courage when we need it, in the morning one of the band find me before I got the train in the station, he said that he got a part from the other of the group and wanted to help me, of course, I refuses to went with him, he talked a little with me he really was the handsomier of the group, and he said that he had prejudice and he saw that I was white that the other from the group was who was dark I wasn't, he didn't like his friend because he thought that the friend was black, maybe shit-talk of young adult, he said that he would look for my agent and said that they were trying to cheat me, I said that when the train came I would departure with it. He returned bedore the train arrive with my agent and I returned to the hotel, but in danger, I wasn't happy to be in a place that was a place that rent stays, I would preferred be in the house of a trustable person or family. My agent make me return to sing with the band, which was kind of loose, for the two parts. I was making money just to appear, and they didn't have that kind of money, I receive money to dress the creation of one designer, so I went to parties, inaugurations, dressing some dress of a famous designer I receive money for that, I receive so much money part was because of my height, they need a famous that when appear walking at the side of other people in a party the famous be higher, or would be a little shameful, so that money wasn't for everybody. So in comparison with my colleges, I was swimming in money, one day the dark guy went to talk with me, he said that he would pass to protect me if I appear to be his girlfriend he was really gay, the proposal was a shit because who help me was racist but what would happen to me if I said no? In the end, I accepted because he was in peace with the one that helped me, even he said to me that dating the swarthy I would not pass for embarrassings. A couple in love we passed to have more fans, and the revenue grow, so much that my agent said that I would stay in the band until the revenue was higher, so he was so happy that wanted to convince me to marry him, the marriage was a huge success, had a lot of people to see the ceremony, even a travel to the exterior, the honey-moon. He said that we can have a kid in a laboratory, and once there the technology was make the baby in a tube and after put in an aquarium to the baby passes the 9 months growing until be the day of the born, I asked if in animal wasn't easier, the doctor said that was ignorance, I said so do in the aquarium that I want to see. After the baby had been born he got crazy and said that wanted another baby and this time his prostate I thought what the problem? When was near the birth he got really bad and had to go to the hospital I felt very guilty for letting him be crazy he was to die and we already had a baby and if he died our other baby would die, I prayed a lot to he didn't die, he when came out of the hospital with the baby born how he hated me, had times that I wanted to say that we weren't a real couple, that we did it for the show and the money but I let him maltreat me with words, I didn't have nobody I was still Virgo. When we divorced I kept that guardian of the kids, I went to Russia, my economies was so high from the time that I was in shows that I could live with my two kids for the rest of my life there, divorced and my kids being white and blonds, I thought with me that I was white with two whites kids what I would do in Africa, my two kids was white and blonds why don't feel white instead of return for Africa thinking that I was black? They deserved to live in Europe instead of having neuroses of colour in the brain. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

Ps.: When people asked why the marriage ended, was because of his pregnancy, when he went to the hospital to save his life everybody knew the reason, so I answer that our marriage ended because he wasn't very intelligent or he would revenge, understand when he didn't have an idea of how revenge he be pregnant he divorce me or otherwise he would keep married revenging.