A long history

 I don't know if I like to say that history, have a gay soul that said more than 10 times that want kill me, I warn that I revenge of that soul, is that I died murdered. And the gay think that have permission to kill me...

So the end came of the begining, I see in the end a person that I knew in the begining that I didn't told before. He was who offend me. I before got kidnapped I thought that the man return and that one was to kill me. He was my cousin, but he didn't like me. Not from Africa but I don't know he lived in England. Before he kill me he said that I was mullata. I imagine that I had more money, he tried kill me when I was a kid but I run, I was almost sure that he wanted to kill me. So I never see he again, but just in the end. He was racist. Maybe he was son of a cousin of my parents, more far, we just relatives.

We even pose in a picture, when I was 6 years old because, when we meet he change and I. He got transform in a handsome man, and I change also, I never saw he ugly. His eyes were of the same colour of mine. People thought that was so amazing that put me in his arms to take a picture. I was 6 years old and he was 16 years old. We was in a mansion of an in-common relative. When he saw me alone in the garden, he tried to kill me and I came an animal and climb the tree next the house, and got inside the house by the window upper level. 

So I died with 50 years old. Was the incarnation that I lived in Russia. So after my husband tried to return, I went to Engkand to see our sons. In the hotel I there was my cousin and a reporter wanted to take a picture of we two together for the newspaper. He looked mad for me and call me mullata, I said that I didn't mind, and I went to the bar of the hotel, to pass the frieghten that I had. That make me sad I didn't wanted to cry. I said that I would depart in that same day, for the man of the newspaper. And turn back to he leave me alone I was really sad. I was there to see the sons, but thinking that someone call me mullata, I didn't want people to see me with them, I wanted to they be considered white. I knew that they had proud of the mother but I wanted best things for them. So I returned just after to Russia, I didn't wanted to passe a long time in England. I after return to Russia I passed to receive letter fraightening me. I have to say that 10 years before I started to felt that I would be murdered. I just thought that nobody have the righ ot kill someone just because the person was a cretin. I was faithful wife, I givek all to my kids, I let they lived alone in England because I thought that they really like all that freedom. Once I said to the newspaper of France, because my husband after some years of the divorce said, that he returned to France, and the people of there were happy because he was having erections, all the country was happy because arrive someone with erection arrived. The country was broxa? At least one was having erections. Imagine that country being rapped, for that guy with erections. 

So in the time that I was murder, I started to receive firghten letters, and weird occurencies started to happens in the neighboorhood, that impression of being watch, return to my house and things wasn't quite right. I said to a friend that doesn't have a husband at home, have people that have courage to kill us. But I didn't see who was behind the not straight facts. One day when I was in a cake store, he finally appeared, and he sit in front me, and I remembering the frighthen letters, the not straight things happens for where I used to be, like the person knew all my routine and touch everything that I touch. I was looking down because I was to cry. And he I don't know what he pretend to talk with me, sit he had an erection, and said that if I wanted money because of that erection and throw money on me, I said God, and jump of the table pay the enough to cover what I asked and started to walk home, but faster than the normally. And he tried to follow me, and he was to hold my arm in range to leave him alone, but I started to run. I was inside my home thinking that I wasn't safe, that I supposed to leave the country. But inside my bedroom I started to listen the roof being peeled of, I got some clothes and throw in a suitcase, and I dressed very fast, and got down the stairs to got the car to drive away, cars were very expensive but existed, but once I opened the door, there he was in the other side of the street looking to the door, so I run back inside home, and I tried to close the door, but he pushed with violence and I was launched violent in the space when I hit the wall I got almost unconscious. He got my suitcase and me and went to the garage to put me in my car. Inside during the minutes that I listen the roof being ripped off. I notice that I changed, I became another person and became shorter like being 12 years old, so started to cry a lot. We took me to a house that he had or rented that was far from another house. There he rape me, was a month, in a moment I thought that I was pregnant and started to cry to he doesn't got close and he went to a pharmacy to buy abortives for me. When I die he returned me to my home, the police see that even the clothes were from another era. And they realizing that I were a werewolf, imagine that if a man could kill me he also was a werewolf.

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And all mix and what shake

So to the darling, you know that fat woman hatted in the USA, in were to lovers and lesbians? An old uncle support you two. And had another that he support, was one with red curly hair, when the American died he passes to support her, and you passed to be her lover. Is that I remember very well of her.

So one day was still in that incarnation she asked to one day I consume her, I have to say that I had to change my mind, I am not the kind that lie so I say the truth, but I came a better man that doesn't judge she. If one day I desire she I would consume her, that day happens.

And was that was an incarnation that I was a prince but of a doomed family, I was a sobrenatural creature, people even don't notice. I married with my cousin so dommed like me. She was so please that got pregnant that she live me, because she was worse than me. Everybody new that she was still in love for me, but she was mad she live because she was jealous. She said for all the country knew, we receive others titles maybe Duch, that the husband was hers and she let I had women but not she have a baby from me. So a girl to date me would be one that would make an abortion, my wife have spies in the city. Was 50 women after my wife leave me.

And I had a tide foot of another life, a gay that also was when a woman was my mother, is that she was my mother and when was to die notice that was in love for me. So she had a daughter of 20 years old my same age, and she was putting the daughter under vigilance to be sure that she would be a virgin. Is that she would use a virgin in her witchcraft to make an young prince got interested on the daughter and in her mind I would consume the mother of 40 years old, where came from of that hole the 20 years old virgin. Seems that right? I got abussed ideas about the subject and if I kidnap the daughter rape and kill her, good idea! I listen all the witchcraft, I was powerful, after the daughter serve the propose of the mother the mother would betray the daughter and she would given for a rape by old men, the daugther also an old business of the mother, the mother was a husband of the daughter and would be the chance to got revenge of her.

So I kidnap the daughter, carry her to my castle, were 7 days, I really didn't give her food, I would kill her in the end of 7 days, I wanted her weak. I give her when she was thirsting wine, I was drunk almost all the time. I said that she wanted drink would be from my lips. And after I give all the drink she need to passes her thirst. I would live almost 300 years, so I really needed change my tittle of prince to another. She born to be find be the same crazy friend 3 times, was the same history, in the last time I got mad, because I came the form of when I was 20 years old, even the clothes of when I was young, so the control was higher, I said to her that would be the last time.

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And that day happens

 Took a long time, for that girl, is that girl we don't know until we know I will explain. Is what she said to me... I belive on her, she doesn't love me I believe her. I wasn't a girl want, we never went to bed and she said that I never could make a girl happy in that sense, I would never would try make you see you was wrong, centuries after she said that I never want her, that she wasn't dirty, to I remember so well of her, that the virginity returns, that she was not born a prostitute, I save her of her madness once and just only because I care for her, does she remember? She believed very much in Jesus an she would do a very wrong thing and after Jesus would clean her. She was friend of a demon, the demon said that the biggest pleasure was a big hole of a after deliver mother and a big lid to cover, I said forgot that forgiviness and forgot that pleasure and make sex only to have babies. Let the hole be big and don't care. Think that is that woman are a very unhappy soul that have to live with that give babies for the man, and the result is a big hole, and think that is a disgrace the size of the hole of course, I said that my wife, only delivered babies very small she was luck and the hole was small even after. 

Next history once we were together.

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This God die of course

 And I had afraid of that guy. So let me say that one smaller God separated that God, we cheat him to He doesn't know who He separates. I before that God be destroyed, and other soul, we are together, we for we are talking with him. The other God separate me of the other soul, because He was afraid that God was sadistic. I had a lot of pleasure to kill and the other was need of kill, I used to think that 3 killings was the enough for me, and the other was compulsion. When He separated we the other said my love and I said my life. The other doesn't care for me see if care for him. I don't know what the essencial difference of what we said. And why was so easy, because we was talking with that God that, he was thinking that he wasn't gay but he wanted to to give the ass 3 times, the other was saying for him go ahead do that for you and for me! And I was saying don't do think you have to think in the others, your selfish old man. 

And we encarnated, we had some essentials doferences I think that he held back his assassin tendency in the first years, I became that secular assassin because I give up of my sin that is kill.

Also we were kind diferents to being handsome a girl can't say who was the most handsome. He one day that we were in the same village in the far past, he said that he was trainning to be one priest of Jesus!!! I said had only one road in that land and He passed and I didn't see? No would be in 2000 years in the future, he was practising chastity, one girl of our age asked me I supposes to wait, I said yes!!! Passes many years and he nothing with her, was that I was thinking nobody supposes to aske to someone choice for you if you supposes do or not, I said to that bad, but I answer that in doubt of do or not people supposes to don't do. I was saying that he wasn't the kind that jump in a girl, she really would wait to doesn't have, but what she expected he change his mind, she deserve to perverted his will, if he wanted to keep his body virgin she was wrong to be a temptation for him, the temptation was sex, she was ugly. And other he was a girl, I was still a boy, and I say to her that confuses sex with disrespect that, that I loved her but I respect her, that she was different of the others girls (that want sex!!!!), I wanted to she doesn't ask for sex. And she becoming a pi pi pipipipipiranha! Wasn't because the ass of the old man, wasn't revenge... I didn't die, so I wasn't there for the feelings of the other. I gonna say whe he really hurt my feellings is make me felt ugly.

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Receiving a message for me!

 Of about the incarnation that I was the singer that passed to live in Russia. My husband also that I knew was impotent. And the message was that he had erections, thanks Good I didn't see that. Who wanted to see his stink erections? What I would say? Hide that nobody want to see... That old thing ressucite!!! Is like a zombie, don't see? We have to pray to that dead thing to return to remain dead, that bichona suja. Maybe he passed had erection with weird things like see a dog shit??? Or I don't know smell of the trash???

And I also don't like who like to destroy a so ruin marriage. What have the person in the head? The person already felt bad... People say that our marriage are ridiculous, don't see that first offend me? So I am ridiculous, people don't see that people suffer, and that is only step in a sick foot. Who was the person when see me marry so bad? The person doesn't think that could make someone hat him and only want his suffer. Let the others in their suffer. Why didn't he came running to save me of a so ridiculous marriage? The person destroy someone once and wasn't enough came to destroy a second time... And if I had told that to my husband? And the homosexual was sadistic, I didn't like his wife be ridiculized to marry a homosexual? And if all that homosexual husband that kill a man, was the wife that asked? Because had someone mocking of her?

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where the swallows sleep

 What woman isn't dispear before the 30 years if doesn't have sex, they had 25-28 years old, he doesn't understand that is common women want sex before the 30. Old for him is very old, appear...

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Some people would learn how to unleash

 That veado velho e feio. Velho veado, sacanagem asswholiness. Is just that relation, or hold or let it go! I have more to do than lose my time with an old boring gay. I I exchanged hotness for safety, he had nothing of hot. I don't do that a second time, I want a mischief of a man just a few years older, that guys promess love and security, I didn't think that they was handsome, enough I want a handsome boyfriend, they got me by my bad sign, I was a young boy playing with girls, but I married, I went with older women because I doesn't play hard with young women, they when young are fragile, when older they are disapear, for any man an young and handsome is like a dream come true. I really leave them. No more. Give peace. I want a handsome young man like I was, I was a little swartty girls used to say that was because I was tender. I had in the another live in very past two friends girls that they went to a cave to each take herself virginity with a stick I thought they did a pact of love, wasn't sex, wasn't one making that to the another. Is that we can't live in that safety, appear that the demon is just next door. went's that that gay the spirit is a velha vaca. I didn't had sex with no one of them, the guy was saying that he make hours of sex to doesn't give pleasure, I don't want!!! He said that is like after 4000 years of incarnation, never climax, what is missing to he give that he receive money? He had an old woman friend that like to went with younger men, what her problem, she only got fixed to after old and are walking back in time! Is a time that passed, when people doesn't respect the other also doesn't deserve respect.

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That thing about luxury

 Is that the people doesn't understand what people need, we want that person beauty that relly deserve the love of someone, and people came with get sex and forgot that you need a boyfriend, we are that good person that sees that nobody have to accpet us of anyway, ugly, fat, dumb. And people say to we look for the wrong way. We have that existential problem and not funcitonal, have sex and forgot your dreams, sex resolve all the needs. I even want to call who have those ideas, girfriend change the underware pants because if you find the right man, be using a hot pants, someone have to think rationally, maybe you need I to be the choffer of your sexual life, let it to me and you gonna see how that can be stupid. People that see the gorgeous and think that person need sex, maybr gin and sex make the same effect. Be more girl than a girl what a pussy.

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What enfronttery

 About in the incarnation that I lived in Russia. But before I don't understand an gay spilling the luxury of others, like that a girl fit to came beautiful and the gay think that need find a man for us, like need you cigar take one of mine. So when I was in another life he say that he was gay I understand... That he was very selfish, and petty if was that the case I can even be 10 times more than he. So be gay is don't care for other thinks, if people have fellings, he can step on it, drive over people how was nobody there, no police I didn't see, I knew his pedegree, I see his manners, I notice his mania, I understand him...

The thing is in the tale, he is like crocodile use to defense and I am peacock have to be gorgeous, and like him I want be married to walk rolling so I was. And if was like that be unbearable, I think that he first ask pinico so I win.

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Movies that I like

 

Someone asked to I ask prayes on her father land

 Is that living where she lives to day have who want still incarnations, and she are asking to people to be fair and pray for her because. Becasuse with the golbalization people like of who even doesn't k ow personally, personally the liked person is a criminal, ahd the person the robber want very much to be J. and she are asking to people of that land pray for who is the victim, she know today who want to still her next 200 in future incarnation, the fact is that her mother would be from England, and his father from J. but is that how the mother are older she didn't asked to the father of the victim to be a father, so she doesn'r have even a family by the part of the father. So people of that land already are friend of a fake boy, is a woman that want to born on their land giving the birth of descedants, becasue is easy steel that people, appear her mother is a microwave, for friendship give a pinch of you nationality, going after the mother of the other people. So she is asking pray for that people to they remember to don't give what is of another person. She and her mother would almost die in a travel, the mother was pregnant waiting for her and the helcopter was got by tornado with all the passangers that were few, her mother was making the covering of an news in the TV, and they was carried of England to Japan, so her birth will very famous in the J. so they survive. So remember that she doesn't father, and her mother is whiter that she, give her birth make the things very hard for her, her mother doesn't accept, maybe his father would be another person, maybe the right person one in the Land of her mother that would give this time a family, but her birth can be negociated because her father are from the land of this friends of that woman that says that are a boy.

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The history of no one

What expensive love just cost for a girl a leg and pussy. And the puzzle is he went to the world to find her. The problem is that she would never be find for him because he like to went to streets that had .... to find a companion, she isn't that kind. So his love coast or not what I said?

The sentimental office that she went she was saying her history, she like virus and he is like bacterium, so I am saying the history of a virus and a bacterium. You gonna see the history doesn't have owner stay till the end.

Is that if have 12 minds that lived the same history because somenoen write to be follow, and the problem the end appear doesn't have.

So she was having that live, for she if with high heels she be 1,70m she would be in catwalk. She probably is almost 1,60 or over that, they said to her that she was fine to passarela, also because she was in the ballet, they accept if a lot of tolerance a person that had a good body in doing swimming because, ballet give grace, and others sports make a perfect body, but and the talent to walk?

Is that the money is low, and we know even prostitutes in the parties that had there. So we know the bad... They also said that are girls around the world they doesn't want 2 of the same city, because one can try destry the other, is a dangerous place, that money passes, but she see that isn't to her, she don't wanted.... 2 of the same city they had to be very friend. Where models and the other kind crosses the way. And is in the parties, because they passes the gossip that the party are full of models, so they just got in the party but just doesn't stay even one hour, so have men that pay to be in those parties. They went to the parties even with the designer dresses, they doesn't need spent money in parties dresses. Was like someone planning for her, someone thinking for her.

There they say when someone got to find one before they went away, that don't worth talk with them they doesn't understand your language.

How there the girls are from any place of the world the common are they came and don't talk with you, probably you don't even speak the same language, so is a kiss in the mouth. If is a game I don't know what the name of that game, nobody got homosexual to kiss in the mouth or hold someone's hand, is need much of that to make me nervous, but please a kiss of a young lady like me... Heterosexual girls do things like that and nobody fool me I don't kiss old lesbians.

She before what he do to pass the night, she in rich parties and he, walking in the cities or in bars for poor, how they gonna find each other?

And about the hair, the best is have a common hair, because is the worse ´place to have an weird hair, and why, one thing the models of course are thinner, but the ones that are prostitutes like to be confused with a delicious model, so if you use a weird hair, is so easy one copy that specially colours, you can in another life not in that place, even one prostitute 10kg fater than you and shorter, if a the same weird hair colour would be if not confused to be you, gonna say that one with the color of Nananan...

She was thinking to say to him that she went to those parties because he far, she got bad. But knowing what he is doing, forgot... She was thinking to receive advises of him that doesn't went to the parties because if there have prostitutes you can be confused with one. But he went with prostitutes, say in whom that one is interested, one person said that she are being with in th ecompany of the Nononono, and he is so bad he is really gay, so be far from him, say that guy are looking for the other guy? They said that the parties went to the scandals because an poor got inside the party and poor is like that in rich people party ruinned, started to give names to who doesn't deserve, that models that went in the beggining of the party to prostitutes and pimp make money with that fugaz presence, are wrong girls, say that is cinism, have daughters of riches people that make exactly that and nobody got shocked what is exactly wrong they even doesn't make money to be in those parties. They in real are expose to dengerous of fall in temptation, I think that is very moral see someone say that make money with that and think that this money isn't for her. So what is the wrong? I think that is only to be in the parties with those expensives customs. 

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About light and filters

And I already said that the refraction of the light with the sensibility of the camera, even when the camera wasn't digital the sensibility would be of the film, paper and reagent or the pellicle, so the light according the place in the planet the wall of air, of the atmosphere is like an len, that according the angle of the sun light can filter some of the 3 lights that make the white color, take out some red, or of the blue or the green, making a movie classically blue, or one kind of yellow-orange have movies that have that hot appearance, the filter that we apply, could balance that but... The filter will be applied in a color that loses. So something will be lost. Is like that we lost some of the blue, because of the ozone layer, than we gonna put an filter that equilibrate the green and red because the blue was lost, but the blue would not be replaced, so the blue was lost and that isn't replaced, so isn't the same that film in Europe, so something was lost, what could be the effect in the quality, maybe a fall in the definition. What to use to that cases, I very good camera to the loses be not essential, if the camera be very good, the clarity would be compensate.

Also I see an movie that the camera was special for low iluminaton, my impression was, the image was granulated, is good and isn't good, sometimes make an clima, and sometimes appear low quality. I also when filmed with the camera attached to my body the camera was a small one, what I do to have a better image was, a good illuminated place, that helps a lot to the quality.

Also have the filter during the filming and applied in the edition, people thinks that during the filming the light is more captured by the camera, and after the quality decline a little, what make a filmmaker prefer in the edition, sometimes are comercials porposes, the scene without the filter are interesting to mke some TV shows about the film, I only would release after the movie came out of the cinemas, to keep that classy quality, show the scene naked, take out the glamour of the movie, the people before went to the cinemas thatre know all the special scenes of the movie, you don't gonna make the person have that ectasy, is like see the sunday TV program, just sit and no emotion, also is important keep the original without the filter, because of some study about the movie some years after, you can have an doubt about and the filter masquerade something, with the original you can study the scene, years after of course if your studio have that posterity concern, something could became a pearl, everything no, but who knows what gonna be a pear, only the time make classicals, have the gold and have the trash the time choose.

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And person that was considered saint?

 But thinking about let me say that I wanted to see the relics are from God or Demon? Thinking about that of Americans carry books from Europe in the 40's, people miss and they were looking for that relics... So that drama around here are since the 40's at least? After I would say the history of the saint, but I was listen the A. didn't help proper because he-she didn't like the American, is a short history. So I imagine that if J... wasn't in Americas in the 40's he isn't deep in the facts. So let me say that the American receive power of God and he asked more.The A. thought that would not help that guy, that the A. didn't liked to be pushed to Brazil carnally, the A. born there. So let me say what the American said to G. that he would lose the humanity for the demon and after God give him more power enough to he save the humanity lost of the Hell. Go. thought that was delicious and said to the maid thAt He liked but he was short of denero, so can you borrow me to give to that American... and the Demon that was the maid of the day open the spiritual form of the American and put, the American said an fetus in his hole that the American would be using the power of the Demon during that body be in his body. I start to think that doesn't was in the Catholicism but for Jew I many times I show the frauds of the Demon. He fraud a lot of time, and see he doesn't think of me like his enemy, at least for that I don't like to say shit about him. So who lose because he wanted you think that the A. wanted to help him, appear was help to lose.

So can you imagine, that wasn't books of sciences, unless the people prefer denero to salvation, and had who even sold the soul for, imagine if salvation was money, soul can't be also money. The demon could swap births, I would try to prove that is only the birth of two lost souls. So he can gave you another birth but only if the birth of another condemn. So say that the demon saved at the time European relics of that American and if he destroy the relics and asked that for miracle God returned all the relics he destroyed. 

But what pitty the books probably were important also. The Demon can return all for you he had that power, he had a hole house full of relics, even more powerful, and what beauty is the hose, relics of the bottom to the top. The same even more new, I am not saying that are from him. The demon had all that for thy help, he doesn't have one but a lot of the same, he can even make another just like. 

So the history about the saint, and he was considered in life, hsi problem was that the demon even after chase him and in the end people considered that he lost for the demon. And was the water faucet was invented, and came popular in Italy, he saw the demon putting the dick in the faucet because had people that drink water putting the faucet in the mouth, he was Jew converted to the Catholicism, and he was divorced, and the demon win when lack cherity in his soul, his ex-wife after lose a baby and in the poverty asked to return to him, and he didn't accpet, and she was so bad that she died at the time. He died many years after, appear that the Church let the divorce since, the person doesn't marry again. So was accept the divorce but not a new reunion. One of the relics have about that man that lose for the demon, the demon though specially for cases jus like and put a relic, people see a demoniac face in teh forehead near the eyebrow of that ex-Jew in the day of his death, and appear that they named the demoniac face capiroto. So another was a mysterious disappearing, another divorced that was making an construction for the Church, the fact is that he disappear, for that disappear also had a relic. He disapear and they just find a mysterious object the  7 bags but they mean? One bigger than the other put 2 of the same size, the answer of the puzzle was one inside the other and the 2 of the same size was inside one bigger that hold the 2.

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I talked with the sosia

 One of the probelm of the sosia is tha the doesn't lived in his country, he is so the guy that the other is who doesn't have nothing about the famous, people knew the sosia, the age is of the sosia, the sosia is 10 years younger than the original, so the person id new because the social is young, the sosia even doesn't understand very good his situation he thinks that he receive an artistic name, but one moment for another the original begining to torture the sosia, tried kill him in Brazil, and with one call, asked to people stops to trust in the sosia, but they doesn't know the original, he tried kill the socia in the USA. The sosia had 20 years, or so that he live in USA, his father is rich, but never knew where he was, when younger he was kind tanned, so even his family would not recognize him. The original can't walk alone, so if you don't know someone like that you only know the sosia, have a famous movie that is making mention to that, so is so old that accident. So the sosia even don't know how got his identity back, 20 years living with another name with people making things for him.

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In that kingdoom

 Of Hell. And let me say I went there before even I had a blog. First we are tested, the test is that you have to be unreacheble of everybody. Then came the test, and the test is came a voice and say the life of someone else, that is rape and death, for me was enough, I listen one of the histories of the life of Christian, and if she forgive and grow older to show being in another life my grandmother? I wasn't violent. So I got in very greavy, and came another image, another time in my bedroom, I didn't knew where people I thought that they run away. So even being day came a darkness to the bedroom, but before, I got tingling, and a voice of young woman she said that she was the demon, and she causes that in the people excitation. And she got me down to the hell, because the well suced down to hell bgeining with that humiliating history. There she said that her name is unrespect say her name? So if isn't she said that her name was Diana. She show her self, she was a puppet, with articulations in the arms and legs, I even think that she was small, dressed like an Angel, and if wings, and keeping flying with jitter. She said that she would be my guide. After that history of the book that she show me, came the real night, but the night make me see better the hell. So in the moment that the demon would came, Diana count the hours, she said was missing 2 hours, and there was the demon, attoped like frozen and the reach was came out of the hell. I saw someone lose for the demon, because he didn't humiliate himself properly. I didn't wanted humiliate for the demon, I said that I would humiliate myself for Jesus but not for the demon. And the hours wasn't walking,and the demon only came when the person are in the knees, I passed almost one hour with pain in the knees because I would not humiliate me for the demon. So got faith and ask Jesus to humiliate me, and a foot step on my back, and Diana started to say that the hour in decrease, and I was already with pain in the knees, and when she said that the time finished, the ndemon disappear and is time to see the Heaven, that climbing wasn't so better places till the last.

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Ps.: The foot make me be more curved, bench me more, was heavy and was a foot like a baby foot.

And why this isn't good

 Think in the demon isn't good because he uses that to came, so he can use that to be free of his dungeons, so is good forgot his face, I imagine that isn't any think about him but with beey insistence, and also imagine that we imagine one that doesn't scary very much, have some texts that say that the face of demon is very indign, I never know what that means, but today I am seeing someone think on him and I see a very old woman, that doesn't have respect, the person doesn't see the bad thing that want climb at spent of he think on her, she is grotesque. Probably he doesn't see.

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And in the end he became a good person

I was thinking why God doesn't let that for a person with better fortune, you might think why a person without a soul would help someone, and let me say the history of that person, after lose the soul he died but he became good before die, so he didn't die with the death, so he is in a special hell that was look his house, and he live there, he appear a normal person, the hell appear hell, with darkness and those strong lights, maybe that hide that he is a dead person, he said that he is already 300 years, that he is afraid of leave his home, so what he gains helping, I think that he is American?

And let me say, is that the answer? The demon said that he like who have trust in a special, one like the one that you use, that he chase that read a lot of times doesn't make it powerfull, so is that the answer if we want to have power with one in your hand, you can't be a person that think that you have one powerfull because that one is used a lot, that all the Bibles have the same power, so the way to send the bad thing away is have a lot of the Bibles. Because this way you prove that you think that all Bibles have power.

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That woman carry all!

So that guy was rich and famous...  I gonna say what was. I was in the club Asbac and there is near the beach. And in a second that I was far from my parents run after me an man, tanned, full of muscle, and with worn shorts, and a very stilized hair but ruined, the hair was blond but ruined, he have some scars, I thought that he was a perverted fisherman. With all that tan.

And of course that I think that had women that like to know that to console that kind of guy. But you know the Bible say the woman carry all, more than she need, and what is for you. 

I even don't believe that people thinks that I am lesbian, I am not. Have a person that I know since the geo that I think that I am so sapatão how he is cagão, he thinks he is cagão, no! So of the same way I am not sapatão. Who want him he is married, of course the woman, her door is always open.

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The blog will be on vacations

And I will return in January of the next year, but be sure that will have some articles during the vacations so return at all times you like.

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Something nice that I taught in another social media

 How to fix ends points of nylon, and how to use till the end a broken lighter.

A new idea for recycle

 People put in trash good things that can be reused, this could went to trash.

I gonna use the hard brim of the hat, I don't gonna cut the cloth, but unsew to use the cloth of pattern, an I don't gonna make a sun visor but a cap, I am thinking in make in crochet or tricot, but I need chose the thread or if is only sew. Have people that would truw in the trash an sun visor even knew but you can keep the brim and others things and mkae a cap.

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To change the eyebrowns

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Musics

 

Some of the basic of are apply in a paint

 First was what the eyes can capt and today even what the camera capture is important for the paint. 

See the problem of sculture for the business is that isn't very good to use in advertising and labels like paints. How I gonna use an sculture of course is a picture could be used, just isn't very common. Digital art the file is sharp, an paint only is good if well photographed, so we have an extra problem, one work that I did was in gouache for a book, I didn't photograph that I use an scan, a good scan keep all the quality of your paint to you delivered your job. No lights concerns, or distorcion you can photograoh and doesn't keep the square dimensions and see that the paint isn't plain with the camera, all that resolved with an scan, but digital art is the more modern result that is in the most expensive advertisings of magazine, or that or an photo, so I have to be so modern like the world that I live, we see the result we don't see the hand this is where the artist came old, they don't see who do that magazines, so don't believe that we are living that modernity. Also I retouch my paint, at the time I had to do that with paint, I had a problem if the original file was JPEG, everytime I close the file, the kind of file change for completely the quality, was because I worked aplyfing the picture and the lines getting mixed, everytime I close the file, s o I tryied with the PNG, and the work keep the quality till the end. Is that the pixels doesn't change in the previous the pixels got all the time blured in the paint, because the paint is a toll of edition, every time I open the paint the pixels was mixed getting more blured, till the quality down very much. You just open with an tool of visulization no problem but open and save in the paint.

So the paint lets be in a room, first the lights are close and you don't see nothing. And sudenly came the lights, and the lights that had colours and doesn't have body, But let's talk about the white light and the bodies that with the light show thir colors. You sometime doesn't see the passes of the common light and it is only notice when touches the bodies. Even if be an slides in a wall.

So the light, before was dark, with the light appears the shadows, go decreasing the light and the shadows will increase untill disapear for completely the light. So the phenomenum is ht light. 

Light and shadows

And after we have the shapes and the colors, this is interesting and not so simple, dogs in their eyes have few bastonetes that are the cells that notice the colors so they see few colors, but they have the other shape of cells that capt the image in the eyes and this is the cells that see the shape. We have very nromal vision for us, and insects see colors out of our prism, the insects see colors that are over the violet ultraviolet colors, how much are they? And have the colors that are under the red the infrared, all they are rays, and we can make machines that work with that rays. So today we can represent things that cameras can show and our eyes doesn't.

Shapes and colors

And texture, is kind of important but let's understand that cloth have texture but from where a painter is watching, are almost imperceptibel, unless you look of very near, you see a dress far you can notice if is mate or glossy, but not the fiber, weave, glossy commonly is the quality of a surface with small pores, porosity is like matte for many surfaces, of normal materials I am not talking about ink. But of course that an basket you can see the straw.

But texture is very nice when we are paint, also for the abstract art, but to paint landscape, is like a techinique to with some light brushes paint rivers, grass, earth, trees flowers, you don't paint each flower and you don't paint each leave of grass with a thin paint!? Is like technique with texture that make you paint fast landscape a lot of art and techinique. You don't paint that exactly cloud tomorrow gonna be other,  the river is running all the time, so you aren't paint an static nature. 

Also thexture can be wondrs for an ambient, this depend of the artist, an cool example you can send to do some pilars for a room just to put some texture and represent better an ambient, you can even put some spot lights to have an modified place. Just for decoration purposes, you can even send to construct an wall to apply an texture, so in place of a paint in the wall the room gonna have an thin wall with some art, colors and textures making an art object, my mother used to do that she order big pots and she texturized and painted, more than a miter high ones.

About the wall you can make a modern totem, with interactivity like inside have an arduino or comands for a play room that have cinema and pool table, fro the bar, things like that, or a fountain my father send to make to one home an fountain that the water came down from a rock wall. And had lights to iluminate the wall to be an apresetation even the night when was the common to have parties, wasn't nothing implossible, was an interruptor like one of the light, a water pump under the construction a,nd the water passes by an common hard pipe hide by the decoration that was plants could even have artificial between normal ones, and the pipe was with holes to the water when passes run by the wall, the pipe went of one side to the other side of the wall, in the top by all the extension. Thsi can be replied for garden to grass to swimmingpools.

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Music

This can make money and light is important video

 First you need a good camera, doesn't need be the best or the more expensive for photographers, the camera for photographers today for be digital make movies. So you can work for an filmmaker that work for an studio making this pre-works. Some good works started with that previous study, one is of light of th eplace, but imagina an important cinegraphist went personally to the local of the movie just to shoot some videos to study the light of the place, a completely exposition of a public life, of a celebrity, is just this he need to know how the light will be in the time of the shoot, or maybe is inside a home or an shop. Maybe he thinks that in the shoot day will be needed much more lights to iluminate the place, or he even thinks the hour of the day the reflection of the light troubles the shooting making scene with ove exposition, he can change the hour, he can change the street. Also is need, I never see doesn't be, ou know how to download the film file in the computer of his studio. And according with the hour the place of the planet we can have this problem, the reflaction of the light in the atmosphere and the sensibility of the camera, the eye doesn't see, but sometimes the camera sensibility because of the refraction of the ligh according also with the fact of the meridian, the light of the sun near the poles are perpedicular and n the tropics are directly so the atmosphre can filtrate some colour, maybe the green maybe the blue or the red, so the same camera in Europe have one image and in places of the tropic have other image, but this can be surpass with filter that we can apply even stilized by us.

And another job, is that if the act is for the theatre doesn't have that job, but if is for one that have camera, is the test of camera or video or lens that is see if how the person is represent by the camer aif the person is beuatier or uglier by the camera. If the person would be a sucess no matter even if is photogenic, you can be studying what is the best angle. Is that the person gonna say anything, sometimes isn't enough you need see even the voice enterpretated, maybe the person need a professor of dictation. So why a famous director would make that job? This is better than a bad surprise of th eperson went to make a movie and be reproved in the set. Have legal responsability almost nobody is hire without an empresário entrepeneur because someone will pay an fine.

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One idea to make a lot of watchers

 Is you upload you video and copy the link use an software that generates QR code, I think that even the one note generates QR code, or you can use one that look in the google generate QR code online, and you don't gonna even need download a software, print a lot of with some indication of what is the QR code and put in some place that have visitors like Gym, study groups, you also can make in computer an bookmarker with the address of your blog or stream app, and distribute the question you want so much exposition in your city, to people that can find you, or know where you live, and apsses to watch your life like you being a aquarium fish?

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Another thing that I passed to use when drawing

 And of course to that reciurse you can use one more professional, or I use a point of the space to keep the colors used to got it with the colorpicker, or I create an layer of the colors used to have the pure pigment and not just one aproximately, because when retouching I got that effect dirty because the colour wasn't the original, like an dirty whiter or darken in the image so I kept the original colors to recolect with the picker because use 10 colors the prdecessors would be erased, but have one more professional practice that is create the a personal pallete. Another use that I used is close the layers just at the moment that part is finished, is because I already worked with app that really the computer work hard with it, impressionant like I was making an 3d, the app used many of the ram becasue before you create the PNG or JPEG is a big file I almost got shocked with, making the computer lower and closing the app because demand many of the ram. So is also good look for a software that many uses becasue you can working with one that you don't believe but uses to much of the machine.

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About light and shadow

 I paint and also I am photographer, a hungry one but a photographer. So in photo we have t knew light but when we paint we have to understand or there is go down the pipes the realism, so in picture you study the light soft and the light hard, at school we learn the cinematic like light, if doesn't exits light would not exist cinema, lens light, shadow is somethign that appear is the phenomenum but occurs with it. So we ca study pictures, so the studio light imitates the daysun light the light came of many sides, and yuo have the effect of soft light, is like many spots of lights, you don't use a holofote because is a strong light and came of only one side, the holofote have light that are coming from a point and got to all the spaces like a triengle is a rays that came paralels between them, I already explain how to make a holofote from a strong lamp an tambo and a curve mirror. Something of studio light, was a photographre taking a photo of a woman dressing black with black background, to she doesn't got confused with the balck background he turn of a fog machine, because the light wasn't reflecting her body and in the digital picture she was mix with the background, so is good you see some pictures of good photographers and imagine how the light was represent in the picture, isn't so simple like rice and beans or you gonna see a picture of a mediocre. Have people that knew everything but the work is poor.

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Easy work with draw

 Sometimes what a person gonna hide you isn't to make a full art but is that the person need sale products, so you need to draw products and ideas or concepts. I used to do compositions, why because who work with products work easyly with me. Like I draw the tomato, in an type of file that accept clipping, I think that is have the jpeg, png, one apply the white underground the other clean to you use like a clipping only of the object in the background. I treat all like elements, is already the therm. So I use my tomato in a composition with background and text, to an label, if something isn't what the client want I change only that, using draw that already exists also have the problem of pay royalties, so some people want a contract perfect fit. And I will not resseling that painting, a important label with a paint that cn be used in any other project is kind of a danger use. So is that I wouln't make 12 tomatoes in labels if the tomato passes I will redo the part that doesn't please.

So I was working with the sketchbook that isn't very famous for hiring, let me say the simplicity of the art, of course using a lot of layers, if you don't know is hard very hard, one layer for the tomato sketch, another layer for the art that is the tomato, there haven't the filling, so I use the acrylic brush to make the solid color, for each part for the gree handle another layer, if I see that would be portions would be an layer for each, and after I came with the more applyiable spray and other brush that I didn't remember to make t1st the shadow and after the light and I use the smudge that is a brush in the sketch but is another thing in the actual that I am studying, and I smudge still very similiar with digital art. And of course that I pass that artistic moment looking anf thinking can bemore perfect and sometimes I brush again smudge again, an completely exercise to make more close to perfection of an digital paint.

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Even there we see the law

 And a voice say to me to kill a croacroach that was pregnant, she wanted that answer and I was pitty of an insect that was pregnant and tried to eat to feed her and keep her pregnancy, and I said that the child could be disugsting but was perfect for the mother, so her feellings was almost the same of any mother, understand? Was that little croacroaches, her nickname in my city are francesinhas.

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About is time to leave

 Once in that home that shuffle the births, also shuffles the families, the mother the father, you never gonna know whre you gonna born, for have horrible families probably appear nice. The fact is that in Heaven I listened another voice that said, don't believe, doubt, play along don't accept, even who receive after 3000 years came the payment, and is a hole soul, the man theremake a lot of mistakes, and doesn't save, one moment I got worried because me and my brother were expected in Earth, to I help him was a birth of twins, so I could carry him out there. So I tried make him went with me, I said that we had what we need that we need went a away a little, he cried that he was poor, I said to him with G... listen and all the room, that poor was who wasn't satisfied with what he had, we were 2 princes and he didn't see, I was afraid of the others wanted what we have, see that the Man give of what had owner. I would never say that I was poor I had afraid of the poorness came close.

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Ithink that

 The canon law supposed to be applied to all, to enterprise and even what appear in any public comunication to people doesn't represent of wrong way, even when they doesn't have any evil intention because we can't call lion the bigest cat, is wrong and wrong people laught of priest, bible and give his wrong concept of sky, we need priests and not people that see a light, I prefer a priest than a good intented person, a good intended person save her soul and she had do all the good she can, and a priest save the humanity. I have enough of what is inside of the heart of who doesn't even have a religion.

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You know that?

 Is a sin say that Jesus is an Angel He is more importan than that is because I read so I know, so is sin call Jesus angel, so I talked about an angel and don't imagine that someone confused the Master with that. He isn't of their height He is above, He isn't equal He is more important.

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Say thy God I probably said you follow the wrong one

Have people that say teu Deus é o dinheiro, yor God is the money, this is the Bible, the Maamon, the God of who put the money above all. Teu Deus é cão, Your god is the dog, cão is one of the names of the demon not cachorro but cão, so the cão chase, the cão will reach you, is the demon, and the cão let the people just the bones, the demon is sincere when he is bad. Cão is the bad thing. And people call dog cachorro de cão, When the demon is being nice he is lying. 

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Don't be guide by that light

 Friends doesn't you think in all the people that lye for the church. I choose the scandal by the lye - I have chosen scandal over lies. Isn't in the Jesus Bible that the scandal have to happens, didn't Jesus said that the truth will be scream in the top of the houses?

So I saw that gay angel saying all that homosexualism, do you think that the bishop pretend that I write what? The truth? Does the Angel betrayl the Bishop?

The lye would not be my cross, the lye would not guide me, the lye would not be the light under my feet, that soft venon that smell weird. You think that is only stench but is poison. 

That cross turn in deep suffer, that guides leads to doom, that light confusses and ends in the precipice. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim.

Even with 60 still the same, another incarnation

 Pedrinho you are rotten. So in another incarnation, my father was the owner of the theatre of Itally. And I was to be the director of the theatre. And the church contract an Auto. So I write the screenplay. I even had an interview with a person that the church affirmed that he was an angel. He was in the church because the church because he was gay and he lost his freedom to doesn't commit. So was what gay, but the church thoughts that he was an angel. He said so much weird things, like he defense in heaven with the a... he only had to point the ass and came rays, I thinking and the bishop thought that I would not make no reference to that I would not even say to him what that guy is saying. I even didn't care for the audience that would be shocked to hell. I didn't say in the play, but would be the rebellion against the Angels and his Comandier, so I got everybody of surprise. So in the Auto were the angels and the demons were above and came down, everybody screaming of afraid because the demons were above the angels. The demons was alliens, and the people screaming because was the first time that was represent alliens, and the demons were alliens. And the Angels just make mension to spell rays, they were cought before and defeat by the alliens. My father said run from the city that I gonna contract a lawyer to see if is the case of jail. Me very young running out the city was a pieace of cake.

Of course was a lot of complains, people went to the jail, after to the court afte to the bishop, but I got free of any accusation.

I was very irresponsible, in my mind if I will be the husband, marry a woman or another man, was the same only was enough he want to be a wife. The life goes on, I receive profit out of the country with others enterprises, I even doesn't trust in the banks of Italy. The marriage were productive, we make a pact that I would look for women to be father and he also. He had 3 singles sisters, he were uncle of my 3 sons, he only wanted one was a girl, he only had a daughter.

So I had to say that had a lot of plays that were homoafectives. Nothin explicity. So one day came my opportunity of make shit again. And was for the Pascoa. And the play was all ok but in the end when Jesus was in cucifixation, I was friend of he, but so let say, when he was in the cross, he didn't kew th eend Maria Madalena came near the cross and pull his underware, and my friend came completely naked, he scream demon in the cross because he was naked. And everybody in the bottom of the cross dancing. Of course I take care of that the kids were take of to a party with cake and drinks to doesn't see that guy naked, I am rotten but I am not bad. I said that see Jesus in the cross would make kids cry. I had to flee of the city again. I was afraid to be recognized by my clothes so I went look somehting else to I dress and escape. How many plays was homoafectives, had something funny like... I was very tall everything were ridiculous, a jacket showing 3 inches of wrist. panst that sow the shank, but I remember one special play, was a bride dress for a man of my height. I had to run of the city dressed of bride.

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Ps.: Had more, Ok I confess that I pretend offend my friend but not Jesus, and people asked me I wasn't regret of the first I said that I didn't, because I didn't thought that I would went to hell.

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Is important to art

 One thing that helps is use an tool, in digital art, ferramenta aplicative, software. That have others users, not because the tutorials that you can find but, because many users is already an community, do the tool that for the users or not.

Sometimes when someone look for an artist would look for someone that understands art, and that person would trust and know the famous tools and who work with it.

With internet you can even receive an invite to work for someone from another country.

So if you work with a tool that artists doesn't got involved you can became invisible. And doesn't matters you are in the right city.

So people that need someone to make art only don't look for professionals in these communities when they doesn't exist.

So before you look for an artist by the technique that he-she uses. Because something knew is an risk, is in tests could became a failure.

So a person that need a work, isn't an art lover but someone that need an sure of attention work, had arts that people even turn the head, because thought that was for any reason offensive, like weird choice of colors!

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The most powerful cross

 God promess to us, the very good ones that if we were put out of the sorceress He would give that, the cross would be very powerful, is nust this He didn't need. We receive to be sorceres. The cross would be agaisnt everybody that were sorcerer, but everybody, the cross would passes to obey only God.

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Ps.: And what is a soul with hands of monkey, or with the opposite colour of the owner.

Obedience this is the problem

 If God say follow the master, who cares who is in the front, if you don't follow you desobey God. You say you don't like the guy, I say to you the guy tried to comer tu? No! So the guy respect you, what the problem with you, you is just an enfetic way to explain is with everybody that never follow a religion because have mental problems... I don't know, but see the order is for eveerybody, so is equal, we live in equality, no one is higher than the other, everybody want to be at the side of the master, and when came the day that they invade that kingdom, gonna you be murder with the king? And the others just people that are there just because the humanity are together.

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The hottest tip for digital art

 You are making shit, listen that tip, so some where came that techinique, that skill. My mother when I was child I learn that when I was a child, use panels to make paint, of wood, of mdf, for vitral, and also for cakes, so in the digital art isn't panel but layers, so each layer have something one it but how to start it. So isn't only sketch it, the next is that no matter what art you gonna copy in digital you gonna, make a filled figure so you don't gonna start with the art but make the panel to paint with the art (gouache, water colour), because you need a delimited panel to each layer, panel is an for an instance a mdf in the shape of a butterfly, so my mother bought the thin wood plane, sketch with an wood pencil, send for an woodcraftsman to cut the butterfly, so is an canvas in shape of butterfly, and she paint it. You can use that to put you cake but the cares. You have to be sure that doesn't have flerpa, that is the wood doesn't have small sticks of wood that someone can eat and go to the throat, so need be filed and after covered with laminated paper, or aluminum foil, what makes prettier, but the common is doesn't appear because gonna be filled with the glacê, given an appearance of gypsum. So you create in each layer an solid figure that you gonna lock it to make an easy paint that doesn't escape in the other layer, so you don't started with watercolour or coloured pencil but creating the shape that you gonna use the art. And the solid colour is like the base colour. An wood panel of butterfly you don't start crude, firs is a layer of white paint to the wood doesn't influences in the shades. A panel could be for parties, bedrooms and is very use for kids if you use childhood themes. So the limitation is the artist. Childhood themes are easier to paint, and doesn't need many creativity, you can even go to an book shop see some books to have an idea. What kids are reading today, how the artists create for them.

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A prince, not in the sense, in Heaven that day, of the word

 So I remember how was today! And we were above the Heaven that had there a prince, the history wasn't good, the Man make him give all his belongs for the others of the Heaven under...

So we were in the Heaven of God we that that were somehting better than Angels, we just don't have a name. And God make a party, because we were children, and would be a table full of food and He make a playground to we play, we were in a comemoration, food and play to the kids, I think that J... let the prince choose to show how he was bad. The prince said to cancel the kids party. So we didn't go to see an coroation under. I think that answer something.

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Please don't think that is disrespect

 The Church is of Jesus, God is above all. God is bigger than that, He doesn't need the religion to be sought.

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Let's burn?

 Hey I never taught to not respect God, where in what I write I said to not respect God? I don't know of nobody faith, I am not between revolted Angels, I am not even an Angel, I almost said that an Angel if the power of not given for God he can became a demon, but I didn't said, a lot of Angels are fanatics, that were hoisted, and they doesn't have that power, so I am not even an Angel what to say a revolted one, I am invited to that house. Call me father I call father, so let it be, I am not between them I was there I didn't see the two robbers that died at that die at "the One" side in the cross, I didn't see Maria Madalena, where these people? I don't know where the apostles, God is very dangerous, probably they are in a room with only "the One", the big Papa is powerful and if you are pushed is because you are avoiding die in His presence, so have who is pushed because that power kills. So I wasn't disappointed to be an revolted angel... I am not even angel. I didn't promess to me, there why God promess for any of you? People is that promess for them that gonna be rich that gonna be princes in the Earth, God doesn't promess that you never gonna suffer an accident.

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And will became

 I alsways think that there is no silly religion. And when I listen that I thought that, had religion that prepare the people for even what never would happen, also fatalistic religions that say about the end of world doesn't help nobody, but let me say of one that I listen have years. And I thought that prepare for a future that never would happens, and that was if the demon win. I was in the house of a friend and she said that was the religion of her maid. And is that the demon one day would win and the world would be of him, and he would obligate to people to have his sign in the hand, like a tattoo with scar made of neddles. So according that religion the people doesn't die, I don't know if is the religion of the last hour. Imagine that some saints and Angels want to passes1000 years in Heaven? So they would be in Heaven, so 1000 years is like deserve the Heaven? And lived there meanwhile the world is of the demon? People I don't care about I just listen my family is very catholics never would like listen such things. So are the fair in the Heaven and the rest in Earth. Do you think that some disguisting thing that is in Hell would be unchain and be between us? I listen that in other place, the demon want prepare his way, like the fortunate fortunate, and he want prepare the world, that the religion would be almost the same, just all that would be talking about now him. All be of his ownership what is inside the religions, do you think is that way? The world will finish probably who says that would acquive with the govern of the Demon I always doubt very much about who says the humanity destroys that planet. Also would came a lot of pacts with the demon.

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Ps.: My dream, the difference is that the other he say that own the souls, but with the govern of the DEmon he want be owner, real owner of the souls, kidn even buying. I don't want sale my soul, so have a special situation for people perfect in the goodness? Imagine an humanity of souls treat of less importancy of the body? And people being able to live without or salling it, I am arguing he gonna molest everybody or just who is weak to fall? Have merecimento! All to make people sale the soul. But all that apocalipse, is according?

What about that monologue

 Than come he and he talk with the audience.

He said: When I was in the School, no girl of the school wanted to date me. But one day I went to the theatre of the school and see that I doesn't want nothing with study and said for my parents that I got encountered myself in the theatre and that I wanted to be an actor, instead of I am vagaboond and want to abandon the school. So I went to NY, and I got sucess in the mmovies, I started to receive letters from women!!! I maybe I would get sex!!! And the girls of my school call me disgusting... And I started in the blind dates, I thought that so early I would have sucess, so much no that started to be romantic and think in real relatioship... And appear that personally I don't have luck!!! So one day I realise that women doesn't like me, and I said publicly that I was gay, what the help... I think that is a good monologue. and someoene shout in the audience poor of you... And he said do you want date? So was like the AA, And she thought sundeenly I came to think that money is disgusting probably that man is rich, help me God nobody what to disvcover that is so honesty.

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There is come the gay inspector from zoolandy

A serious crime happens against a gay in Ceará, nd came the gay inspector to discover the what happens about the facts... 

Oh so let me say that I saw the gay that farted in Ceará. So let me say that I was in a party and I was 12, and was with my parents, but in a moment a girl and friend asked me to compain her to the toillete. So in that moment I got far from my parents. I even thought that she cooperate with that gay. I was out the toillete waiting for her, when someone said hey, why would be with me, and after hey Rute. I looked amazed, so someone that I didn't know, I thought say the name of the saints and kiss the floor? And he said to me if I say that I would not got in love I would not, I thought you are right your prostitute... and look for him with a homicide eyes. And he went away. And I wanted to knew who talked with me, and a person said that he was from out of the State and gay, I thought so an old women of so receive go away from men, became a lesbian!!!! So he know to cry for men because is his life, so I though that I need make a prague for him before hre return to his city, to what I say follow him to his city. So I said for some people that was in the party, I was destressed girl of 12 everybody wanted to help me. I said that he was a old lesbian because after receive a lot of pass of men, was trying do that for girls, he was so old people... He isnpector gay isn't he even older than you. Isn't he immoral? So was saying to everybody before he went the city that he was so gay that his ass, was interditade, his ass was already dead. That he passed for the lesbianism. So I think that he would think in everybody but in a 12 years old girl making all that gossip. Do you think that if we use high heels we are emancipated? To someone say something like that? So inspector gay, if one day someone like me is the right man, he he he. So have people talking about him???? I am sure of something I am the man and he is the woman, brrrrrr, for you.

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Travelling for a Hotel in the mountain

 To there we passed for some small cities, and one is from where come the suplpies for the hotel. The hotel was construct in the 2nd Great War, but probably wasn't a hotel, I think tha the hotel was 20 years after. There have a chapel, and when in the road to the hotel, some places aren't large so my fahter drived in that moments beeping to if came a car in the opposite direction discovers that is one turn came another car, because one car can push the other out of the road, and one side is the wall of the mountain and the other is a fall.

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What the meaning of that dream

 That person deepily are frivolous? Was dream I was seeing a person make an aesthetic intervention, That was a a gel and a machine that make the eyebrow higher, I was thinking that everybody wanted that the results are psycological if you believe is the enought confidence, understand have many things that the person makes to make them prettier and doesn't have results, is just psycological you want to believe that got younger. And the doctor applyed the gel and a machine passes to of the lid of the eye to the eyebrown from the bottom to the top, and really was less than a 1cm but almost, I got surprise it worked, but why dream with it?

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I was thinking about book the first part

And I think that takes time, and is make a research of the map of the city. For exemple if was in my city, the best part for the book would be neighboorhood of the last living home of my grandmother, is near the street of the cematery. There have the beggining of the highway, for one very good resort that my fahter is socio, in the mountains of the State, so is a good place you got that highway to see beautyfull farms in the State. The cematery is of the age of the city. Be old make very interesting for pictures even the street of the begining is interesting a large one maybe to pass the cortege of the funeral. Some pictures are good, once I went there with my parents, and a man dressed of white enter the chapel and came out walking backward. My mother said that he was a macumbeiro and they do that way to fool the spirits that folow, the spirit would not understand that the person are walking out of th cematery.

But I had another idea, so I still need study the map of th ecity. So I was thinking to use the internet to research the map of a metropole around the world, I don't gonna make a travel but I can research of the landscape and of the map of the city, and arounds, and if have someone running in the history I nedd to knew if he-she would be able of runing out of the city or reach someplace. Is that in a dramatic moment people doesn't really sttops to got a car because a person that you can see th edistance of you running is probably of 12 seconds? Can you open a car get inside and it turn so fast?

Also if I gonna place in one place and would have flowers, I need to know what are flowers of the country, imagine a person in England and I talking about french flower in a flower field, unless have some good reaso in the context, like one person plant them, or isn't very understandible. Also I have to imagine if the person run from the close to th eopen or of the open to the close, I can tell a history that is th ereverse and be even better. I could imagine a house, but imagine that where is the kitchen in that house could be the reason that the person wasn't killed, a small house probably is better run out. I have to say that in big houses the person stay more time, is because they are trying get out? afraid of open spaces? the doors and windows are closed? So when the person run she gona take a main road, or gonna run to the bushes? So is good make an scheme of the theorical house, maybe see some pictures of houses of the city help you because a house out of the city context, could make a floos in the history.

But also making a research you can use the city, but rename the city, just keeping the country.

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An exercise of creative

These are 2 blocks of 400 different pictures. And the exercise is 1st choose the ones that interest you, and 2nd is make association separate pictures that tells a history, so after choose the ones that you like, you gonna make association of idea and group them to make an hsitory, so in that pile I make 3 different hsitories.

3rd now with one group you gonna put the pictures of a way of the history have an logical sequency of facts, and you can do a collage in any place that you like in your diary, agenda, note-book, on in a hard card like that one of table file.

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Music

 

But if, this solutions only lived in my mind

 Can you find a legal concept, that suspends the effects the of a contract? Travel in the time to talk with the Demon? Can you do that without signing a contract with the Eternal Evil? See someone that is a demon for seconds isn't the Eternal Evil. Is that, that son or only hero lost, so is a sequence, he loses and came the second chance. 

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s]So what is the end? The thing about the demon

 So that hero farted and lost for the demon, had a solution? If I was God I would carry him to the Planet Demon to he die so slowly that he can be saved, but I am not God to have so fallen son, is his son?

A father can save a son, but if isn't? He have to be carried out of Earth where he lose, you can find an double for him.

So the second solution, I think that is that way, is time for some to turn the light and let another to do it, have age envolved. I gonna help for the humanity, nobody that is spill like the 6 would help you. Anger of don't have anymore the exactly age. That special birth is the age. So you represent the priest, your are growup, isn't to you be a real priest, just that you gonna have a flock of 6 kids of 12 years old. The rest we only know with the evolution of the history, so is the only help I can give to you. Is intuitive, God will help the kids that are with you, He will talk with them, so and know what gonna happens?

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How could be she?

 She was in my mind old and dirty, and was writing in my other incarnation about a woman that I would desire, a female villain that causes me desire, even of far she was dirty and easy. She was hard to catch and murder 2 husband, what the lady have in common? She in the end was a spider because her life became a net every time more easy to murder but at any moment more near of she became also trapped, beautiful but a cheater, IWas talking about that I like dangerous woman I was talking about me is that her boyfriend, was a cheater that offer her of a lot young boys to got ride of her, even the guy boyfriend qas closer of the character that I invented, in the history there wasn't an old man that make that for her, didn't he make a net of friends to involve all that young men with her?

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Why the reason of the kid

 Why in the another incarnation, two men had a son. We were still teenagers, and the married was fake we never went to bed. My brother showed that he made something enough that could send him to an mad asylum and that was bad in all countries. Today asylum is good? So came of the mind of my brother, was an temporary frivolity, was a madness but he would be satisfied and would not invent one that could got me on surprise. And the reason was therapeutic, why supposes to be the father, was in a clinic, supposes to be one person that would be the male of an destressed man, he wanted to be astounding for a woman, and not be a woman. So the reason wasn't homosexualism, and if my borther give up for completely of the baby I would raise him without a mother, no problem, my own son, I was the father. Rute Bezerra de Menezes Gondim

Go see her age please

 Had two kind of women that doesn't like me, also have the ugly, but they are so in their subjects wasn't a problem, but specially hate me, old women that I didn't wanted I think is one or please no more than 5. The other are young girls like 6 years old, is because they came in bunches, I neve wanted a small age girl. With 12 they have hope. One of 6 years she hated me very much, but let see. I was 12 and was engagged to marry years after with her sister of 16 years old, a tidy marriage we were, Jews that follow Catholicism.

I thought with myself that she was a little crazy of want me so bad, I would never make bad for her, and 6 years older wasn't interesting of no way. When I was 20 years old, if younger was hot I would wanted someoene even youger than she. Then end I married with the bride, but she had this she liked to disapear without informe, and she was in the house of her parents, their parents already had another daughter, that when I was with 24 she was with 12. One day that I went to take back my wife, was a day that was there a lot of 12 years old girls, and they jump over me. And I explaining that my wife liked to run from home and I went to catch her and bring her back home. And her sister of 12 said that love me. I sid something that she was beautiful girl that, she would find a boyfriend and one day marry. My wife asked the divorce to I marry her younger sister, so you you count 2, but pay attention was 3.

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Hey guy I know you

 My soul aren't a female, soul I am a man. If you talked with me you see a man. Because I don't talk with you, you don't understand that are talking with Rute. 

Also yesterday doesn't die me or the other, who kept, because she climbs me because her girlfriend, but the lady was my grandmother, I am a so powerful grandson, but of another incarnation.

So I the previous incarnation I talked to you, yor young man, before I died I went to talk with you, and die ad return so you are very young to talk with my next incarnation? I went to talk with you and your cousin because I was king of uncle or an older cousin, you don't know who are your family because you two hate Germans, don't you imagine that your grandfather like me was in the arm? You know that I came from England and passed to lived there with my father. Don't need you two felt gay, I went to talked with to you, because you are homosexual and loved an actor of the pass, I went to say for the young two gays that, I was old for any of you. Go play with people of your age, you don't know because I talked with you separately. See that faces doesn't existed because in Germany we take drugs that change the face. I was a spy that used my changed face in the movies. If you two are tho anti-nazis so the actor and the director aren't cousins. In the movies I used different names, you gonna date any man sayin that was me. Imagine a man lying to you that was me, and you dating him because you don't find nobody more similiar than the movie, when I knew your demency I went to talk with two but I didn't had took that drugs, you see another man. And I liking you because I like teenagers and kids, I worked with then in some TV  actions to taught soemthing for kids. Wasn't for the army but for the TV, that I worked with kids, I see some grow and came teenagers.

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You would don't want see me do what God say to me

 Also is that I am son and I can judge that I could do something more descent.

God said to me to I kill someone that see my demonic appearance, what I felt that my father say to me became the demon and someone said that I was wrong, I cried for inside. God said to me say to that person God was calling him woman, so say to that woman that he would came powerful if he kill a child, and you gonna follow him, when he even attempt you gonna kill him even before he do.

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Poliça and the Demon that is a hand

 And let me say that I investigate what happens with that person, he thought that see the hand of God, the Demon to cheat him, cut the own hand and the hand climbs to the heaven and the man see only a hand, he thought that a cloud hide the body there was only a hand. I investigate what happens, I discovered also, that the demon have afraid of be guilty and got down in life but not the hand, the hand doesn't feel afraid of be condemn, so the hand kill him. 

I to discover Ionly could because I could have the same defectuous hand, we need relationship with the demon we had to knew the sae hand, I saw my hand and got know why he died, I to be with that hand I had to get down 6 hells is my far that I can so is my parenthesque, the most important is down 30 hells, I at the time lied to an prophet, when I thought that he would judge by my appearance but not for my acts, I tried to bring bad luck for him, I said to him that powerful Demon is 30 fall to down I want see he prostitute himself in life for power.

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Some about me and about thoughts

 And was when I learn walk, my father stopped to put me in the arms, and got mad, I jump of hate, and he said you can make a theatre, and said I had an idea. I run to my bedroom and used the blanket like a cape and said to my father, you gonna put me in the arm. He said superpowers? You gonna use superpowers on me, and he got mad about me.

And the other was the oldest memory I was sleeping and I see a cloud and that thunder. And I passed to pay a lot of attention in what people say. One day I learn the last word and was God, and I remember that I listen I am your God, and He asked me if I wanted to be a prophet I asked to my parents what was that they say that they kill mad and be untrusted for their own people, and said that I didn't wanted to be prophet. Be treated like a mad person? And he said pay attenttion I only want that you pay very attention and discover where is the far Orient. Have the near Orient, and middle Orient.

And one thiought, if a sobrenatural, asked to a cousin from the city, what is more romantic? She lived in the city of Paris and he in the country of the same Country or he lived in the countryside of England?

And if she is in the house what a mansion, why he to atack her need to make she got outside of the home, let me say that for some nights was only they two in the house. The propriety had lands and gardens, and pound. so outside is a beautifull place even in night specially if with moon.

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Substancially one aspect about the two flour of the recipe

 And was that at the time my mother make an calculation that she considered the price of the flour used. And the one with polvilho azedo and polvilho doce, that one in the country side of her mother was even used like talc with babies. The difference if the recipe that she receive worth of the way was one bread for the same quantity of flour and the other was at that time of that year, one was 20 brazillian money and the other 4 brazillian money, polvilho came in boxes of 200gr. So say the eyes came or doesn't came bigger, but what a lot of offended teeth. Imagine that was a kind of flour that cahnge for completely the use, if the ost are eggs or the most are butter. And doesn't have about the ferment, because flour with ferment for bread is something different. Goma, oil and water is something that poor could have at home, always was cheap, the people that worked for the family and was poor, used to say that even the eggs was fried with oil that was cheap. That she had money and can offer coffee with sugar to the visitors. That at hoe was 4 cups of coffee. So could came that would have coffee. Who is more rich have a bread of the bakery, who is more rich had butter in the bread, who have even more have a piece of cheese, who is supreme rich, cold make an oil and chocolate with water cake, who is more rich an cake with real butter, and if was even more rich an marble cake of ant chocolate cake. Also who is poor used to don't have refrigerator at home. So butter need refrigeration, eggs doesn't, canned sardines doesn't need and so on.

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Another cheese that I like

 And can be used in to be the fourth cheese in the fourth cheese filling. And is Gouda cheese, isn't very famous but is sweet is more famous the reino cheese, I like the two. The gouda is a lightlly sweet cheese, that smelts, you only know what is when you eat it, and is a cheese that have fat and have those holes of the cartoon movies. The reino cheese, also is sweet the bouth, have an peel of wax, the reino,kingdom is red probably to hold the fat, also they look like cheese prato and mussarela but doesn't need refirgeration, but this two haven't an notable scent and the kingdom and gouda have taste an smell.

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You know what is the basically change?

 The quantity of eggs!!! Was only two eggs and a puff of cheese. My mother put a lot of eggs and the dry cheese to dries the dough, isn't a dramatical change?

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Ok of my grandmother was different

 My mother never wanted teh recipe because are with sour starch and sweet starch in place of goma, didn't need scald, is the same flour of brevidade. My mother was rebel to that recipe. She only wanted that recipe that are with goma. People gaved a recipe for who had one, just wasn't a cheap flour. But my mother improve very much the recipe. All day worke, the recipe that she had had days that the bread was even impossible of bitte, of so hard, hard like a rock. My mother loses a lot of batches, hard like a rock. Is cheap?

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Ps.: What is brevidade an cookie that smelted in the tongue, of so soft, sweet but can be salt with permesian cheese, is like the predecessor of the onion salty, so brevidade is cookye that smelts in the month so is a short minute and disapear. I imagine that maybe had an older cousin that knew that recipe.

The origin of the recipe?

 Have any person that thinks I know the origin of recipe that my mother learn before I born? In my family kids are cooking since the 6 years or even lower age. The most famous cake that my mother was a failure, she was 10 making the sand cake of her mother for the sister, she said that she thought if baking powder make a cake grow, imagine a lot ot baking powder, the cake came all out of the pan in the oven. Was for the christening of the nephew. My mother had thousands of bread cheese recipes, of blender with corn flour with baking powder. Have a recipe that came from Recife, had other that was from Minas Gerais.

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Dont't be so hard

 In my firsts articles I said that people could write to me I just isn't the kind of answer, but I read...

Is I a shy, also people I am not make advertising about my social net because, some have a lot of people that I know personally, so who have afraid of another attempt agains hers life, would not mix the two net, I would be more friend of you, but one of that people are one that even tried to kill me. Is like bring the rotten in the most important place to me, had times that I thought of create a personality just for my readers to understand, because my face is already a place that fear me. Also don't got shocked but when I started had bloggers, that to keep the audience payed 3 readers to read the face, email and the others net. Do you would not liked to write for who pay to answer you would you? So had bloggers that really said that answer, but because was already an interprise to make someone that famous, that even employee, so who spent all that money want and need financial return don't you think? So they really need audience because they are already loosing money. So here is free, people read of who doesn't spect make money, I just like have friends.

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And one theory about hydrogenated fat

If there is hydrogenated fat, can we do tha in home? And is that the chemic of the water is H2O so if, we have an thin liquid vegetal oil, and put the water in the freezer? And we blend the real cold water with the liquid oil? Why the H of the water would not make connections with the oil molecular chain and make it hydrogenated, and this way a solid fat?

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So the cheese bread with some eggs and xeese the importancy

 So let me say that the more important part of the recipe is the eggs and the choose of the cheese, during the explanation you gonna understand, the reason for that recipe.

And the cheese, before the Tauá cheese, my grandmother was from a farm family, there cheese was aged, wait to came dry and acid. I think that re 3 years. 

My grandmother used say that in the farm the cheese was grated in the meat grinder, my mother use the blender. In a farm depend where is the light isn't that far. How much distant the farm the light id hard, people use lampião, the energy is like from a motor, had light but not in all rooms. Have an TV anttena for one room can. Need also energy to pump the water. So imagine that there radio is something funny, you only need some battery to pass the night in the room.

So let me say that my grandmother, you know an potato smash that have a cup? My grandmother used that to take out the oil of cured cheese, you grate the cheese and ask a man of the house to pushes, they have strength if you have all that strength do yourself, came a oil. What rest is like mass with less taste you can enrich some other poor recipe, or serve to trow in the animals baia, they eat animal need got weight. 

So when who gonna knead is me I use without nobody see a lot of cheese and cheese essence.

So is a dry cheese for that recipe, but let's to the part why.

And the recipe is good have someone to show you the process because, without the measurements you have to know by seeing if the point of the dough is right. 

So the begining is you scald the mandioca starch, or goma goma is more artesanal so is a starch more expensive and with a little of taste, is a test question and sometime gonna change the quantity, and why, because stach is more processed so microscopic the size of a starch is smaller is like sand and mud, they are the same but water in sand passes and with mud the water doesn't passes.

So you gonna put in a pan my mother used to use a milk pot, the water and the oil, and is very dangerous, the oil and the water doesn't mix and in the fever they pump a lot, the oil change of place with the water just to explode and spill hot water and hot oil. And you gonna came with that boiling, if don't be boiling, I tried sntead of bread you gonna have cookies, less hot I imagine that petas. So the point is very peculiar the starch would be still dry isn't to wet all, you gonna have a crumbled flour, if be more than that would not work, so is a rough flour big chuncks with almost dry starch, let me say at this point with goma is more easy. You gonna have a better product, the goma absorbs better, but know the point of the important eggs.

And this point my mother would put in the interplanetaria blender of the arno, is the one of out home. Let me say that recipe beat one so light batter, is because my mother doesn't like make that part at hand. So this is the time to apply the eggs, you gonna put th eeggs till you got a soft dough, they are not an chiclete, but an dough that if you touch you gonna felt the pressence of the starch, so yuo can't scald with a lot of liquid, so what gives the uniformity of the dough are the eggs. Is like that if you put few eggs the dough gonna got less cheese, so is like 3 to 4 eggs, much more what are you doing? So after yuo have an homogen dough, that you made with eggs you can take out of the batter. Imagine that interplanetaria of arno I make so many good things one it and doesn't break, like specials cakes and cookies, and marshmellow and chantilly, I do chantilly with fresh milk cream and not with Amelia. 

I also when I don't want do the marshmellow I do itallian glacê have people tha tconfuse the two.

So you gonna put the soft dough in the table, is a good moment to put salt because are still soft of work, so you gonna have to be good to salt things, so you gonna put gratted cheese till got in the consystency of roll like a soft bread. I put the essence when in the eggs moment. So you roll the ball and bake, the oven are to be very hot, and why. Because you gonna have an less glue bread if you put in a cold oven with low fire, the dough gonna be like chiclete, and probably would not got that crocant croast.

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Ps.: Also I do in the planetaria of arno industrial ice cream, a version home made, just with some the incremetns but with the rest home ingredients, so the sugar, could be one more expensive with another fat to the one industrial - hydrogenated fat (palm fat, what the problem cheap chocolate use that), I made with coconut oil that enriched with alimentary qualities and worked out, I use expensive chocolate powder, like ovolmatine, real strawberry or in place of essence, the mavalerio powder, that are made with natural elements and not just essence. I don't use liga neutra - neutral bond, but the one that we make with food. 

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